So if you'd kindly relocate to here here
here
here here
here here here
,
I'd be very happy indeed.
Thanks ! ♥
Now get carried away like bullied!Teukie :)
8.7.10
Relocation !
Sorry for the inconvenience everyone, but I have a new home for my fics. (:
So if you'd kindly relocate to here here
here
here here
here here here
,
I'd be very happy indeed.
Thanks ! ♥
Now get carried away like bullied!Teukie :)
So if you'd kindly relocate to here here
here
here here
here here here
,
I'd be very happy indeed.
Thanks ! ♥
Now get carried away like bullied!Teukie :)
9.5.10
A Night With Super Junior [Part 2]
Title: A Night With Super Junior
Part: 2 of 2
Characters: SooYeon (original), SooYeon's mum, LeeTeuk aka JungSu , YeSung aka JongWoon, ShinDong, SungMin, EunHyuk aka HyukJae, DongHae, SiWon, RyeoWook, KyuHyun
Disclaimer: I do not own Super Junior, no matter how much I want to. I do own SooYeon though. :3 It was originally meant to be a oneshot, but it got too long so it's now going to be a twoshot.
Summary: 9 out of 13 SuJu boys get bored and decide to invade SooYeon's house, for better or for worse.
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"What time is it now, hyung?" RyeoWook oppa lies on his back, hands behind his head, staring at the ceiling.
"Which hyung are you talking to, Wookie?" asks JongWoon oppa cheekily. "2PM," HyukJae oppa answers at the same time.
"That's so not funny, HyukJae oppa," I say, frowning. "Does it even look like it's daylight outside?"
"I was only kidding SooYeonnie," HyukJae oppa glares at me. "Stop being so literal." He rolls over on to his stomach and rests his chin on his arms, staring at me. "I bet you're one of those girls who protested in front of the JYP building and joined the flash mob. I bet you're boycotting 2PM and you want JaeBeom back. Right?"
The others stare at him with raised eyebrows. "HyukJae, what are you on about ?" asks JungSu oppa, bewildered.
"HyukJae oppa, if it makes you feel better, I'll go protest in front of SM building, join a flash mob for HanKyung, KiBum and KangIn oppa and boycott Super Junior for a while, alright? No need to be jealous," I reply with a completely straight face. The others roll around laughing, HyukJae oppa included.
"You're not serious about that, are you SooYeonnie?" RyeoWook oppa suddenly asks with a scared expression when everyone stops for breath.
Of course, that just starts everyone off again.
"Let's play truth or dare!" DongHae oppa proclaims when everyone manages to take it down a notch.
"What are you, ten?" ShinDong oppa retorts as the others start cheering. I crack a small smile as he looks blankly around. "Aishh, you kids..."
They all gather into a circle on the floor, SiWon oppa and JungSu oppa pushing the sofa back against the wall and carrying the coffee table to safety before it gets broken (and knowing Super Junior JongWoon oppa, it's most likely going to be broken if it stays in the center of the room), while I get a bottle from the kitchen to spin on the ground.
"Break that and you'll never be able to come over again," I say as a precaution as I set it down in the middle of the circle, then look around for somewhere for me to sit. KyuHyun oppa and SungMin oppa grin up at me from their positions on the floor. Oh come on, there's got to be somewhere else for me to sit...
"Come on SooYeonnie, hurry up, DongHae hyung's excitement is disappearing," KyuHyun oppa pats the ground next to him, looking like he's going to grow a poodle tail and ears to match his eyes. Oh God KyuHyun oppa, please don't give me that look ever again, I'm going to have nightmares.
Ah whatever. I won't die from sitting next to him for a few minutes. I plonk myself down next to him. "Yay, now we can start!" HyukJae oppa cheers. He hands the bottle to JungSu oppa. "Teukie hyung can have the honours."
JungSu oppa spins the bottle, and it comes to rest on SungMin oppa. "SungMinnie, truth or dare?" he grins, dimples all aglow. Well, he's clearly excited.
"Dare!" SungMin oppa squeals happily, hugging his pillow.
"Okay, I dare you to... kiss SooYeon on the cheek !"
"OH HELL NO !" I yell, jumping up from the floor. I try running, but DongHae oppa and KyuHyun oppa have jumped up from their seats at the speed of light and drag me back down to the floor.
"You're not going anywhere, SooYeonnie," says KyuHyun oppa with an evil grin and a wink as he sits triumphantly on me. I feel like a rib is gonna break and pop out of my chest soon.
"SungMin oppa, please get it over and done with and save me from KyuHyun oppa before I bust a rib or die from suffocation," I manage to wheeze out. DongHae oppa immediately pushes KyuHyun oppa off me, and I can feel the air whistling into my lungs. Remind me not to get into any pushy/physical fights with KyuHyun oppa anytime soon.
I screw up my face in anticipation of SungMin oppa's kiss. And then I hear a camera click. I open my eyes to see KyuHyun, HyukJae, DongHae and SungMin oppas rolling around the floor, sounding like cats being strangled. I spy a camera in KyuHyun oppa's hand. GREAT.
"That is so not funny !" I exclaim, refraining from smacking myself on the head. I could kill them right now, I really could. I get up to leave, glaring at them.
"Oh, SooYeonnie !" SungMin oppa bounds upwards. "Don't go ! We're sorry !" He grabs me and places a smacker of a kiss on my cheek. It's got so much power that I'm momentarily knocked aside. The remaining members who aren't dying stare at both of us, shock written on their face. I turn my head to SungMin oppa, still in my knocked-aside position, to find him grinning sheepishly at me.
"Well, I guess that wasn't as bad as I expected," I manage to concede, though my brain and internal organs are slowly catching fire and dying a slow death. Thank GOD it wasn't KyuHyun oppa who got dared.
Relief breaks on to JungSu and SiWon oppa's faces. JongWoon oppa turns to whack the others and tell them to shut up and get back into position. I sigh and re-take my place between KyuHyun and SungMin oppa, resting my head on the floor, cursing my sleeping mother for letting Super Junior stay over.
*
Finally. Silence. Peace. Not counting the silently snoring body of my mother next to me, this is the quietest time I've had since Super Junior arrived almost 3 hours ago. I'm just grateful that I've managed to survive the craziness. This silence must be my reward for being so good.
I close my eyes, only to see JongWoon oppa in my head, face illuminated by a yellowish light, holding what looks like a giant bag of sweets in front of him and grinning like a vampire who's just found a fresh vat of blood. I hastily snap my eyes open. Their haunting my dreams too !
I pick up my phone, and find that KyuHyun oppa is still online.
I silently pad out of my mother's room and poke my head into my room. Ex-room that is. I can't see anything in the darkness, so I flick on the light, expecting to see oppas KyuHyun, SungMin, DongHae and HyukJae snoring their heads off. But no such luck. My room is completely empty. Great. Awesome. Praise the Gods. The most playful members of Super Junior are running around my house, unattended. Better check on the others, which is totally JungSu oppa's job. Why am I suddenly the SuJu leader ?!
I can see some bumps in the darkness, so there's definitely something in here. I cautiously turn on the light to reveal soundly sleeping oppas RyeoWook, SiWon and ShinDong. Where the heck are JongWoon and JungSu oppa ?
I tiptoe down the stair, watching my step. I admit, I am a klutz sometimes, and even worse with the lights all off. I survey the living room. Nothing there. I make my way into the dining room. No living things there either. Where else could they be ?
I close my eyes and see JongWoon oppa again, this time grinning happily as he watches a chocolate bar fly through the air. I snap my eyes open. What the hell ?! My imagination's going crazy. I'M going crazy.
Suddenly I hear soft rustling, and I whip my head in the direction of the sound. The... kitchen ? Nope, no one there. Well, good to know they're not raiding the fridge. A slight creak grabs my attention and I turn to the... laundry room door ? Pfft, as if 6 grown men can fit in the laundry room ! But they're Super Junior. They can do anything. At least, they think they can.
I wrench open the laundry room door, turning on the light. HyukJae oppa's startled face stares back at me. I try pushing the door open, but something's blocking it. I poke my head around and see DongHae and KyuHyun oppa squashed between the door and the wall. Whoops !
"Okay, what -?" I start, but HyukJae oppa shushes me, putting a finger to his lips and jumping up to close the door.
"Go back to sleep, SooYeonnie, don't need to worry about us," says SungMin oppa cheerfully, trying unsuccessfully to hide the bag of candy behind him. JongWoon oppa playfully flaps his hand at me, chewing frantically on the gummy that's in his mouth. Seriously, these guys must think I'm blind or something.
"Hey, I want in," I suddenly say. Wow. Did I really say that ? Must be JungSu oppa's weird saying. I guess I should be more cheerful when I'm with them. Might as well give it a shot, I suppose. I hope I don't regret this.
The 4 members who aren't currently being squashed behind the door by me stare, open mouthed, frozen with shock.
Then JungSu oppa smiles widely, exhibiting his dimples. He nods, and HyukJae switches off the light behind me, pulls me into the darkness, and closes the door.
Part: 2 of 2
Characters: SooYeon (original), SooYeon's mum, LeeTeuk aka JungSu , YeSung aka JongWoon, ShinDong, SungMin, EunHyuk aka HyukJae, DongHae, SiWon, RyeoWook, KyuHyun
Disclaimer: I do not own Super Junior, no matter how much I want to. I do own SooYeon though. :3 It was originally meant to be a oneshot, but it got too long so it's now going to be a twoshot.
Summary: 9 out of 13 SuJu boys get bored and decide to invade SooYeon's house, for better or for worse.
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"What time is it now, hyung?" RyeoWook oppa lies on his back, hands behind his head, staring at the ceiling.
"Which hyung are you talking to, Wookie?" asks JongWoon oppa cheekily. "2PM," HyukJae oppa answers at the same time.
"That's so not funny, HyukJae oppa," I say, frowning. "Does it even look like it's daylight outside?"
"I was only kidding SooYeonnie," HyukJae oppa glares at me. "Stop being so literal." He rolls over on to his stomach and rests his chin on his arms, staring at me. "I bet you're one of those girls who protested in front of the JYP building and joined the flash mob. I bet you're boycotting 2PM and you want JaeBeom back. Right?"
The others stare at him with raised eyebrows. "HyukJae, what are you on about ?" asks JungSu oppa, bewildered.
"HyukJae oppa, if it makes you feel better, I'll go protest in front of SM building, join a flash mob for HanKyung, KiBum and KangIn oppa and boycott Super Junior for a while, alright? No need to be jealous," I reply with a completely straight face. The others roll around laughing, HyukJae oppa included.
"You're not serious about that, are you SooYeonnie?" RyeoWook oppa suddenly asks with a scared expression when everyone stops for breath.
Of course, that just starts everyone off again.
"Let's play truth or dare!" DongHae oppa proclaims when everyone manages to take it down a notch.
"What are you, ten?" ShinDong oppa retorts as the others start cheering. I crack a small smile as he looks blankly around. "Aishh, you kids..."
They all gather into a circle on the floor, SiWon oppa and JungSu oppa pushing the sofa back against the wall and carrying the coffee table to safety before it gets broken (and knowing Super Junior JongWoon oppa, it's most likely going to be broken if it stays in the center of the room), while I get a bottle from the kitchen to spin on the ground.
"Break that and you'll never be able to come over again," I say as a precaution as I set it down in the middle of the circle, then look around for somewhere for me to sit. KyuHyun oppa and SungMin oppa grin up at me from their positions on the floor. Oh come on, there's got to be somewhere else for me to sit...
"Come on SooYeonnie, hurry up, DongHae hyung's excitement is disappearing," KyuHyun oppa pats the ground next to him, looking like he's going to grow a poodle tail and ears to match his eyes. Oh God KyuHyun oppa, please don't give me that look ever again, I'm going to have nightmares.
Ah whatever. I won't die from sitting next to him for a few minutes. I plonk myself down next to him. "Yay, now we can start!" HyukJae oppa cheers. He hands the bottle to JungSu oppa. "Teukie hyung can have the honours."
JungSu oppa spins the bottle, and it comes to rest on SungMin oppa. "SungMinnie, truth or dare?" he grins, dimples all aglow. Well, he's clearly excited.
"Dare!" SungMin oppa squeals happily, hugging his pillow.
"Okay, I dare you to... kiss SooYeon on the cheek !"
"OH HELL NO !" I yell, jumping up from the floor. I try running, but DongHae oppa and KyuHyun oppa have jumped up from their seats at the speed of light and drag me back down to the floor.
"You're not going anywhere, SooYeonnie," says KyuHyun oppa with an evil grin and a wink as he sits triumphantly on me. I feel like a rib is gonna break and pop out of my chest soon.
"SungMin oppa, please get it over and done with and save me from KyuHyun oppa before I bust a rib or die from suffocation," I manage to wheeze out. DongHae oppa immediately pushes KyuHyun oppa off me, and I can feel the air whistling into my lungs. Remind me not to get into any pushy/physical fights with KyuHyun oppa anytime soon.
I screw up my face in anticipation of SungMin oppa's kiss. And then I hear a camera click. I open my eyes to see KyuHyun, HyukJae, DongHae and SungMin oppas rolling around the floor, sounding like cats being strangled. I spy a camera in KyuHyun oppa's hand. GREAT.
"That is so not funny !" I exclaim, refraining from smacking myself on the head. I could kill them right now, I really could. I get up to leave, glaring at them.
"Oh, SooYeonnie !" SungMin oppa bounds upwards. "Don't go ! We're sorry !" He grabs me and places a smacker of a kiss on my cheek. It's got so much power that I'm momentarily knocked aside. The remaining members who aren't dying stare at both of us, shock written on their face. I turn my head to SungMin oppa, still in my knocked-aside position, to find him grinning sheepishly at me.
"Well, I guess that wasn't as bad as I expected," I manage to concede, though my brain and internal organs are slowly catching fire and dying a slow death. Thank GOD it wasn't KyuHyun oppa who got dared.
Relief breaks on to JungSu and SiWon oppa's faces. JongWoon oppa turns to whack the others and tell them to shut up and get back into position. I sigh and re-take my place between KyuHyun and SungMin oppa, resting my head on the floor, cursing my sleeping mother for letting Super Junior stay over.
*
Finally. Silence. Peace. Not counting the silently snoring body of my mother next to me, this is the quietest time I've had since Super Junior arrived almost 3 hours ago. I'm just grateful that I've managed to survive the craziness. This silence must be my reward for being so good.
I close my eyes, only to see JongWoon oppa in my head, face illuminated by a yellowish light, holding what looks like a giant bag of sweets in front of him and grinning like a vampire who's just found a fresh vat of blood. I hastily snap my eyes open. Their haunting my dreams too !
I pick up my phone, and find that KyuHyun oppa is still online.
sooyeonnnnn ! says: Why are you still online ? ㅠ____ㅠThe freak. He's obviously got a very disturbed mind. Needs professional help, that one. Hey look, JungSu oppa's online too. Man, they never sleep do they ?
dragonkyu_2388 says: ...
sooyeonnnnn ! says: What are you doing ?
dragonkyu_2388 says: Why, are you looking for a fight ? ㅋㅋㅋ
sooyeonnnnn ! says: ... what the hell ?!
dragonkyu_2388 has gone offline.
sooyeonnnnn ! says: Teukie oppa, what are you doing ?Okay, I'm going to go see what they're up to, before I wake up with a smoking house, or no house at all. I sneak a look at the time. 1.15AM. Sigh. Those guys are going to get it when I wake up with dark circles. I'll make sure they don't get even a second of peace.
special1004 says: Helloo SooYeonnie ! :)
sooyeonnnnn ! says: ... You're just across the hall from me. And you just saw me like 15 minutes ago.
special1004 says: Well, it's nice to be happy all the time, no matter how far apart we've been
sooyeonnnnn ! says: ... What are you guys up to ?
special1004 says: Good night SooYeonnie, we'll see you tomorrow morning !
special1004 has gone offline.
I silently pad out of my mother's room and poke my head into my room. Ex-room that is. I can't see anything in the darkness, so I flick on the light, expecting to see oppas KyuHyun, SungMin, DongHae and HyukJae snoring their heads off. But no such luck. My room is completely empty. Great. Awesome. Praise the Gods. The most playful members of Super Junior are running around my house, unattended. Better check on the others, which is totally JungSu oppa's job. Why am I suddenly the SuJu leader ?!
I can see some bumps in the darkness, so there's definitely something in here. I cautiously turn on the light to reveal soundly sleeping oppas RyeoWook, SiWon and ShinDong. Where the heck are JongWoon and JungSu oppa ?
I tiptoe down the stair, watching my step. I admit, I am a klutz sometimes, and even worse with the lights all off. I survey the living room. Nothing there. I make my way into the dining room. No living things there either. Where else could they be ?
I close my eyes and see JongWoon oppa again, this time grinning happily as he watches a chocolate bar fly through the air. I snap my eyes open. What the hell ?! My imagination's going crazy. I'M going crazy.
Suddenly I hear soft rustling, and I whip my head in the direction of the sound. The... kitchen ? Nope, no one there. Well, good to know they're not raiding the fridge. A slight creak grabs my attention and I turn to the... laundry room door ? Pfft, as if 6 grown men can fit in the laundry room ! But they're Super Junior. They can do anything. At least, they think they can.
I wrench open the laundry room door, turning on the light. HyukJae oppa's startled face stares back at me. I try pushing the door open, but something's blocking it. I poke my head around and see DongHae and KyuHyun oppa squashed between the door and the wall. Whoops !
"Okay, what -?" I start, but HyukJae oppa shushes me, putting a finger to his lips and jumping up to close the door.
"Go back to sleep, SooYeonnie, don't need to worry about us," says SungMin oppa cheerfully, trying unsuccessfully to hide the bag of candy behind him. JongWoon oppa playfully flaps his hand at me, chewing frantically on the gummy that's in his mouth. Seriously, these guys must think I'm blind or something.
"Hey, I want in," I suddenly say. Wow. Did I really say that ? Must be JungSu oppa's weird saying. I guess I should be more cheerful when I'm with them. Might as well give it a shot, I suppose. I hope I don't regret this.
The 4 members who aren't currently being squashed behind the door by me stare, open mouthed, frozen with shock.
Then JungSu oppa smiles widely, exhibiting his dimples. He nods, and HyukJae switches off the light behind me, pulls me into the darkness, and closes the door.
29.3.10
A Night With Super Junior [Part 1]
Title: A Night With Super Junior
Part: 1 of 2
Characters: SooYeon (original), SooYeon's mum, LeeTeuk aka JungSu , YeSung aka JongWoon, ShinDong, SungMin, EunHyuk aka HyukJae, DongHae, SiWon, RyeoWook, KyuHyun
Disclaimer: I do not own Super Junior, no matter how much I want to. I do own SooYeon though. :3 It was originally meant to be a oneshot, but it got too long so it's now going to be a twoshot.
Summary: 9 out of 13 SuJu boys get bored and decide to invade SooYeon's house, for better or for worse.
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It's almost a dream come true for some girls to get close to Super Junior. It's a sure heart-stopper to have your mum as their manager.
So when I open the door and see Park JungSu standing in the doorway, shouldn't I be screaming and fainting?
Nope.
"Hello Teukie oppa!" I say as brightly as I can, opening the door wider. Bad move. Before I can say another word, I get turned into a human pancake against the door while the rest of the infamously dorky Super Junior stampedes into the room.
"SooYeonnnnie!" That has got to be SungMin oppa. As chirpy as always. When he's in public of course. Mum once told me that SungMin oppa could be as quiet out of public as RyeoWook oppa was in public. "Hey, where's SooYeon?"
DongHae oppa carefully peels me off the door. "Found her," he proclaims, smiling his famous smile at me. Bunch of charmers, Super Junior was. Too bad I'm immune to it by now. I thank DongHae oppa, then turn to Teukie oppa.
"JungSu o-" I manage to start before he holds up a hand to stop me.
"Remember what we agreed on, SooYeon?" he asks, wagging a finger at me. I nearly face palm myself. Which self respecting guy would want to be called by his affectionate nickname? Park JungSu, that's who.
"Teukie oppa," I start again, looking pointedly at him and getting a happy nod. "What the heck is going on? Why are you all here?" I scan the smiley faces around the the room and discover with horror that they're all carrying a pillow of some form. Hyuk oppa's simply can't be classified as a pillow. Sodden, dirty lump of cloth would fit better.
"Oh, we decided to come and sleepover," Teukie oppa replies, shrugging. "KiBum, HeeChul, KangIn and HanKyung are all... well, tied up and we, I mean I, thought it would be fun to spend the night here."
"Any reason why?" I ask, sounding a little too skeptical. I better quickly change tactic before they get offended and tell on me. My mum would kill me for being rude to my elders. "I mean, not that I don't want you to be here..."
That's all the confirmation they need.
"Then there's nothing to worry about!" SungMin oppa literally scoops me off my feet and plonks me down on to the sofa. This is not going to plan. I have to stop this before the entire place gets trashed with pieces of exploded me.
"Whoa, hold up," I say. "I mean, hold on please." I smile my sweetest smile at them, edging slowly towards the staircase. "Eomma!" I yell up the stairs, panicking slightly. My reputation as the cool, collected daughter of Super Junior's manager is already getting dented in places. And where are they going to sleep, for Gods' sakes?! Ah phew, there's Mum. She'll fix everything. Tell them to SCAT.
"Hello boys, what are you doing here?" Mum descends the stairs oh, so slowly sometimes. But at least she'll get the job done when she finally touches the floor.
"Samonim!" JongWoon oppa smiles brightly at Mum. Yes, I know, best voice in the group, but a totalidiot dork when he's not singing. With or without a camera."Samonim, we were thinking of sleeping over tonight, so you wouldn't have the hassle of calling us and coming over to wake us up tomorrow." Ooh, the guy is smart behind that less-smart reputation. But we'll see about that.
"I'm not too sure about that, JongWoon..." Mum pauses. Yes! Go Eomma! I think triumphantly.
And then.
"But Samonim, we really want to stay. Look, we've even brought all our stuff with us, don't make us take them all back," say SungMin and RyeoWook oppa, pouting.
"And we don't want to burden you by waking you up early in the morning," DongHae oppa adds, smiling.
Umm, staying over would just burden us tonight and tomorrow morning, DongHae oppa. Seriously, this is just getting stupid. Just send them home, Eomma, so I can get some much needed rest. I'm already going to see them tomorrow when I follow you to SM HQ... so puh-lease don't raise my blood pressure any higher than it already is.
"Please samonim!" The others start pleading. I stare at Mum, channeling some psychic thoughts towards her. I need a break... you need a break... there's nowhere for them to sleep... there's nowhere for me to sleep...
"Well, I suppose we could do this just once," Mum says. Damn. Well, I certainly won't be working at the Psychic Hotline anytime soon. "In fact, SooYeon can take care of you, since she's on holiday now. SungMin, DongHae, EunHyuk, KyuHyun, you can sleep in SooYeon's room."
Wait. WHAT?!
"SiWon, LeeTeuk, YeSung, ShinDong, RyeoWook, you can sleep in the spare room."
"Eomma, what about me?" I ask, feeling like the world really and truly has come to an end. How can my own mother kick me out of my room for 4 guys all past their 20s to stay in?! I rack my brains for something bad that I've done recently, but karma doesn't seem to have anything to do with it this time.
"You can sleep with me, SooYeon," Mum says a matter-of-factly. Oh, great. Amazing. I feel so honored. "But for now, please don't bother me, I've got a headache and I'm going to sleep now. SooYeon, don't stay up too late." She ascends the staircase, leaving me and 9 members of the world's biggest boy-band staring at each other.
A triumphant smile creeps on to KyuHyun oppa's face. "We beat you this time, SooYeon," he laughs. "Now you're going to have to take care of us, and I'm going to be sleeping in your room. What a dream come true."
"Yes, you're sleeping in my room, oppa," I agree. "But I'm not in it. So what kind of a sick dream is that?" The others burst out laughing while KyuHyun pouts.
"Even if you're in it, SooYeonnie, it's still a sick dream," remarks SungMin oppa. He settles himself on the couch. "Now, what do you want to do? Do you have any games?"
"No, I live a deprived life as the daughter of your manager," I reply. In actual fact, I have an X-box upstairs in my room, hidden, but I'm not going to mention that. I'm not going to mention my laptop either because I know for a fact that as soon as I mention it, KyuHyun oppa would have Starcraft up and running on it before I can say... well, Starcraft. And hell, do I not want my laptop to be contaminated with that crap.
"Are you kidding me?" DongHae oppa's eyes nearly bulge out of his sockets. "You don't have any electronics in your house at all?! Man, and I thought we were deprived."
"I wonder what that is over there then, DongHae hyung," says KyuHyun oppa, pointing at my cellphone on the coffee table.
"Omo! A phone!" DongHae oppa feigns surprise and pounces on it.
"Hey! That's mine!" I try to snatch it back, but HyukJae and SungMin oppa hold me back. Crap. Please don't got through my pictures please don't go through my pictures please -
"Hey, what's this, SooYeonnie?" DongHae oppa holds up the phone, smirking. Oh no oh no oh no. JongWoon oppa grabs the phone from him and his eyes widen.
"No way!" he exclaims, glaring at me. "How can you have pictures of SHINee in your phone and not us?" He scans through the pictures and looks back up at me. "And DBSK too! What a traitor you are, SooYeonnie." He shakes his head.
"Hey, but I kinda like the one of you and JaeJoong," remarks ShinDong oppa, looking over JongWoon oppa's shoulder. "Oh and the one of you and MinHo. And that one of you and MinHo. And that one too." They all peer up at me with evil grins on their faces.
"You two make a cute couple," remarks KyuHyun oppa with a smirk on his face. "And you're what, two years apart?" He turns to the others. "I sense a scandal brewing!" He waves the phone in front of my face. "Were you texting him before we came? Huh huh huh?"
"Leave her alone guys," SiWon oppa comes to my rescue. Finally. He's probably the most down-to-earth one in the group. When he's not fooling around with DongHae and HyukJae, that is. Or fooling around in general.
"Aishh, this guy..." says JongWoon oppa crossly.
"Hey, there's one of SooYeonnie and KiBum!" DongHae oppa yelps in excitement. "But only KiBummie?" He turns to look at me with a puppy-dog look on his face. "What about the rest of us? Don't you like us, SooYeonnie?"
"Hey, hey, take a picture of me!" HyukJae oppa finally lets go of me to join DongHae oppa on the floor. They start pulling faces for the camera. The others gather around, taking turns to take up the rest of my remaining phone memory. Awesome.
"Sorry about this, SooYeonnie," says SiWon oppa, shaking his head slightly as JongWoon and KyuHyun oppa start fighting over taking pictures with SungMin oppa.
I shake my head in time with his. "It's alright. Saves me from doing nothing, I suppose. I wish the others could've come too, though." Whoa, did I just say that out loud? Although by now it's no secret that KiBum oppa is my favourite. I mean, I do love them all (sometimes), but I've always liked KiBum a little bit more. Maybe because he's a bit quieter. Maybe because he was my favourite since SuJu debuted, before my mum became their manager.
"Yeah, I wish they could have come too." SiWon oppa looks wistful. He turns to me. "You need to loosen up more, SooYeonnie," he remarks.
"Huh?" I say, but before I can say anymore, he lifts me up and over his shoulder without any effort and carries me over to the others. "SiWon oppa, put me down!" I almost scream, struggling (aka throwing a tantrum on his shoulder) against his iron-like grip. What is with the Super Junior members and carrying me around?!
"Whoooo, go SiWon!" the others cheer as SiWon oppa dumps me onto the couch, knocking the wind out of me, only for KyuHyun oppa to plonk himself down next to me and raise the phone in front of my face. "Noooo!" I protest, hiding behind a pillow. I feel like a total idiot.
"Smile for the camera, SooYeonnie!" KyuHyun oppa laughs like a happy little kid high on helium and snatches the pillow away. I try burying my face behind him but he moves away. "Come on, it's just one picture. Look, pretend I'm MinHo if you want to." I'm about to throttle the living daylights out of him when he presses his cheek against mine and snaps a picture, with my face in total shock.
As the others grab the camera from KyuHyun oppa and laugh their heads off at my expression, I bury my head underneath a pillow and scream inwardly.
It's going to be a long night.
Part: 1 of 2
Characters: SooYeon (original), SooYeon's mum, LeeTeuk aka JungSu , YeSung aka JongWoon, ShinDong, SungMin, EunHyuk aka HyukJae, DongHae, SiWon, RyeoWook, KyuHyun
Disclaimer: I do not own Super Junior, no matter how much I want to. I do own SooYeon though. :3 It was originally meant to be a oneshot, but it got too long so it's now going to be a twoshot.
Summary: 9 out of 13 SuJu boys get bored and decide to invade SooYeon's house, for better or for worse.
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It's almost a dream come true for some girls to get close to Super Junior. It's a sure heart-stopper to have your mum as their manager.
So when I open the door and see Park JungSu standing in the doorway, shouldn't I be screaming and fainting?
Nope.
"Hello Teukie oppa!" I say as brightly as I can, opening the door wider. Bad move. Before I can say another word, I get turned into a human pancake against the door while the rest of the infamously dorky Super Junior stampedes into the room.
"SooYeonnnnie!" That has got to be SungMin oppa. As chirpy as always. When he's in public of course. Mum once told me that SungMin oppa could be as quiet out of public as RyeoWook oppa was in public. "Hey, where's SooYeon?"
DongHae oppa carefully peels me off the door. "Found her," he proclaims, smiling his famous smile at me. Bunch of charmers, Super Junior was. Too bad I'm immune to it by now. I thank DongHae oppa, then turn to Teukie oppa.
"JungSu o-" I manage to start before he holds up a hand to stop me.
"Remember what we agreed on, SooYeon?" he asks, wagging a finger at me. I nearly face palm myself. Which self respecting guy would want to be called by his affectionate nickname? Park JungSu, that's who.
"Teukie oppa," I start again, looking pointedly at him and getting a happy nod. "What the heck is going on? Why are you all here?" I scan the smiley faces around the the room and discover with horror that they're all carrying a pillow of some form. Hyuk oppa's simply can't be classified as a pillow. Sodden, dirty lump of cloth would fit better.
"Oh, we decided to come and sleepover," Teukie oppa replies, shrugging. "KiBum, HeeChul, KangIn and HanKyung are all... well, tied up and we, I mean I, thought it would be fun to spend the night here."
"Any reason why?" I ask, sounding a little too skeptical. I better quickly change tactic before they get offended and tell on me. My mum would kill me for being rude to my elders. "I mean, not that I don't want you to be here..."
That's all the confirmation they need.
"Then there's nothing to worry about!" SungMin oppa literally scoops me off my feet and plonks me down on to the sofa. This is not going to plan. I have to stop this before the entire place gets trashed with pieces of exploded me.
"Whoa, hold up," I say. "I mean, hold on please." I smile my sweetest smile at them, edging slowly towards the staircase. "Eomma!" I yell up the stairs, panicking slightly. My reputation as the cool, collected daughter of Super Junior's manager is already getting dented in places. And where are they going to sleep, for Gods' sakes?! Ah phew, there's Mum. She'll fix everything. Tell them to SCAT.
"Hello boys, what are you doing here?" Mum descends the stairs oh, so slowly sometimes. But at least she'll get the job done when she finally touches the floor.
"Samonim!" JongWoon oppa smiles brightly at Mum. Yes, I know, best voice in the group, but a total
"I'm not too sure about that, JongWoon..." Mum pauses. Yes! Go Eomma! I think triumphantly.
And then.
"But Samonim, we really want to stay. Look, we've even brought all our stuff with us, don't make us take them all back," say SungMin and RyeoWook oppa, pouting.
"And we don't want to burden you by waking you up early in the morning," DongHae oppa adds, smiling.
Umm, staying over would just burden us tonight and tomorrow morning, DongHae oppa. Seriously, this is just getting stupid. Just send them home, Eomma, so I can get some much needed rest. I'm already going to see them tomorrow when I follow you to SM HQ... so puh-lease don't raise my blood pressure any higher than it already is.
"Please samonim!" The others start pleading. I stare at Mum, channeling some psychic thoughts towards her. I need a break... you need a break... there's nowhere for them to sleep... there's nowhere for me to sleep...
"Well, I suppose we could do this just once," Mum says. Damn. Well, I certainly won't be working at the Psychic Hotline anytime soon. "In fact, SooYeon can take care of you, since she's on holiday now. SungMin, DongHae, EunHyuk, KyuHyun, you can sleep in SooYeon's room."
Wait. WHAT?!
"SiWon, LeeTeuk, YeSung, ShinDong, RyeoWook, you can sleep in the spare room."
"Eomma, what about me?" I ask, feeling like the world really and truly has come to an end. How can my own mother kick me out of my room for 4 guys all past their 20s to stay in?! I rack my brains for something bad that I've done recently, but karma doesn't seem to have anything to do with it this time.
"You can sleep with me, SooYeon," Mum says a matter-of-factly. Oh, great. Amazing. I feel so honored. "But for now, please don't bother me, I've got a headache and I'm going to sleep now. SooYeon, don't stay up too late." She ascends the staircase, leaving me and 9 members of the world's biggest boy-band staring at each other.
A triumphant smile creeps on to KyuHyun oppa's face. "We beat you this time, SooYeon," he laughs. "Now you're going to have to take care of us, and I'm going to be sleeping in your room. What a dream come true."
"Yes, you're sleeping in my room, oppa," I agree. "But I'm not in it. So what kind of a sick dream is that?" The others burst out laughing while KyuHyun pouts.
"Even if you're in it, SooYeonnie, it's still a sick dream," remarks SungMin oppa. He settles himself on the couch. "Now, what do you want to do? Do you have any games?"
"No, I live a deprived life as the daughter of your manager," I reply. In actual fact, I have an X-box upstairs in my room, hidden, but I'm not going to mention that. I'm not going to mention my laptop either because I know for a fact that as soon as I mention it, KyuHyun oppa would have Starcraft up and running on it before I can say... well, Starcraft. And hell, do I not want my laptop to be contaminated with that crap.
"Are you kidding me?" DongHae oppa's eyes nearly bulge out of his sockets. "You don't have any electronics in your house at all?! Man, and I thought we were deprived."
"I wonder what that is over there then, DongHae hyung," says KyuHyun oppa, pointing at my cellphone on the coffee table.
"Omo! A phone!" DongHae oppa feigns surprise and pounces on it.
"Hey! That's mine!" I try to snatch it back, but HyukJae and SungMin oppa hold me back. Crap. Please don't got through my pictures please don't go through my pictures please -
"Hey, what's this, SooYeonnie?" DongHae oppa holds up the phone, smirking. Oh no oh no oh no. JongWoon oppa grabs the phone from him and his eyes widen.
"No way!" he exclaims, glaring at me. "How can you have pictures of SHINee in your phone and not us?" He scans through the pictures and looks back up at me. "And DBSK too! What a traitor you are, SooYeonnie." He shakes his head.
"Hey, but I kinda like the one of you and JaeJoong," remarks ShinDong oppa, looking over JongWoon oppa's shoulder. "Oh and the one of you and MinHo. And that one of you and MinHo. And that one too." They all peer up at me with evil grins on their faces.
"You two make a cute couple," remarks KyuHyun oppa with a smirk on his face. "And you're what, two years apart?" He turns to the others. "I sense a scandal brewing!" He waves the phone in front of my face. "Were you texting him before we came? Huh huh huh?"
"Leave her alone guys," SiWon oppa comes to my rescue. Finally. He's probably the most down-to-earth one in the group. When he's not fooling around with DongHae and HyukJae, that is. Or fooling around in general.
"Aishh, this guy..." says JongWoon oppa crossly.
"Hey, there's one of SooYeonnie and KiBum!" DongHae oppa yelps in excitement. "But only KiBummie?" He turns to look at me with a puppy-dog look on his face. "What about the rest of us? Don't you like us, SooYeonnie?"
"Hey, hey, take a picture of me!" HyukJae oppa finally lets go of me to join DongHae oppa on the floor. They start pulling faces for the camera. The others gather around, taking turns to take up the rest of my remaining phone memory. Awesome.
"Sorry about this, SooYeonnie," says SiWon oppa, shaking his head slightly as JongWoon and KyuHyun oppa start fighting over taking pictures with SungMin oppa.
I shake my head in time with his. "It's alright. Saves me from doing nothing, I suppose. I wish the others could've come too, though." Whoa, did I just say that out loud? Although by now it's no secret that KiBum oppa is my favourite. I mean, I do love them all (sometimes), but I've always liked KiBum a little bit more. Maybe because he's a bit quieter. Maybe because he was my favourite since SuJu debuted, before my mum became their manager.
"Yeah, I wish they could have come too." SiWon oppa looks wistful. He turns to me. "You need to loosen up more, SooYeonnie," he remarks.
"Huh?" I say, but before I can say anymore, he lifts me up and over his shoulder without any effort and carries me over to the others. "SiWon oppa, put me down!" I almost scream, struggling (aka throwing a tantrum on his shoulder) against his iron-like grip. What is with the Super Junior members and carrying me around?!
"Whoooo, go SiWon!" the others cheer as SiWon oppa dumps me onto the couch, knocking the wind out of me, only for KyuHyun oppa to plonk himself down next to me and raise the phone in front of my face. "Noooo!" I protest, hiding behind a pillow. I feel like a total idiot.
"Smile for the camera, SooYeonnie!" KyuHyun oppa laughs like a happy little kid high on helium and snatches the pillow away. I try burying my face behind him but he moves away. "Come on, it's just one picture. Look, pretend I'm MinHo if you want to." I'm about to throttle the living daylights out of him when he presses his cheek against mine and snaps a picture, with my face in total shock.
As the others grab the camera from KyuHyun oppa and laugh their heads off at my expression, I bury my head underneath a pillow and scream inwardly.
It's going to be a long night.
17.3.10
Chapter 34 [Final]
General POV
DongHae stared at JaeHwa's unmoving body. "JaeHwa, get up," he said, voice shaking. He cradled her body in his arms. "It's me, it's DongHae. Please get up," he looked around desperately. Where was his phone when he needed it? He nearly smacked himself on the head. In the car. Of course.
He looked back down at JaeHwa and noticed that her eyes were moving. He patted her cheek encouragingly. "Wake up, Jae," he whispered.
JaeHwa
I think I can open my eyes now. I've scared him enough, and I feel totally mean. But it's taking my all not to burst out laughing. I mean, he's obviously extremely worried, but I like him to be.
I also like the feel of his arms around me. It's so nice and warm.
I opened my eyes, making sure to make sure it was nice and slow. This was easier than I thought. His worried face came into view, hair blowing in the wind. His expression rapidly changed to relief. "Thank God," he said, hugging me close. I decided it was time to pretend some more. After all, he can wait for a few more minutes.
I pushed him away, rapidly backpedaling. "You again!" I exclaimed, eyes wide. "What do you want from me?" I noticed the shoe in his hand. Heh. I knew he'd find it. "Why do you have my shoe?!" I demanded. He was still kneeling, and I was still on the ground, and it was so comical that I nearly laughed, but I managed to contain it.
He got up slowly, crouched down next to me.
"I found it," he said, handing it to me. "And yes, it's me again. It's me, JaeHwa, it's DongHae. You still don't remember?" He looked so hurt. I felt like crying. I really am a monster, hurting him like this. I remained silent, still staring at him.
"Here, I'll help you put this on," he said. I sat up gingerly, as he gently pulled the sneaker on to my foot. Our eyes remained trained on each other the entire time as he slowly tied my laces.
"I... I need to tell you something," I whispered.
"You can tell me anything," he said, sitting next to me, the worried look returning to his eyes.
I looked into his eyes. "You... you are the stupidest boy in the world!" I exclaimed, promptly bursting into tears and flinging my arms around him. We both fell over, sprawling into the grass. Sorry grass! I seem to be flattening an awful lot of you.
"What...?" he said, his face a mask of confusion, but his arms wrapped around me. As usual.
"I'll never forget you again," I sobbed into his chest. I unwrapped my arms from him and pulled back, letting him sit up. I was still sitting on him though.
"Wait... you remember?" he said incredulously as he wiped a tear from my cheek.
I nodded. "It all came back a few days ago. I needed you alone... so I came here."
"So all that back there... you were pretending?"
I nodded again. "I'm really sorry," I said dolefully. "But I-"
DongHae placed a finger on my lips. "You don't have to explain," he said gently. "I'm just so happy that you're alright. That you finally remember."
I stared at him. "I never really forgot you," I whispered, taking his hand. "You were always in here." I placed his hand over my heart. "And you always will be."
"Payback for what I did to you in the hospital, huh?" he grinned. He moved his hand and placed it on my head, stroking my hair. "It feels good."
I flung my arms around him again. "I've missed you so much," he said, kissing me on the head. "Don't ever leave me again, Jae."
"I won't," I promised, as he pulled me closer. "Never again." I raised my head and closed my eyes as I felt his lips crash against mine.
Finally.
I fell backwards into the grass and he fell on top of me. "Crap, why do I always do that?" he frowned, starting to get up, but I pulled him back down on top of me.
"I don't really mind anymore," I said, as he grinned. I traced his jawline with one hand. "You look so tired," I said, pouting. "You need to take a break."
"Well, it's all the worry you've caused me," he joked, pulling me back up. "Look, the sun's starting to go down."
I huddled against him as the sky turned into an artist's canvas of fiery colours. "It's so beautiful," I said. He lifted my chin to make me look at him.
"And so are you." He leant down to kiss me softly on the lips. I closed my eyes and our hands intertwined.
"I'll remember this moment," I said, huddling back down against him. "Even if... we end up not being together forever." The peachy-pink tinged clouds looked so cotton candy-like.
"What are you talking about?" DongHae laughed.
"You mean you think we'll be together forever?" I asked, surprised. "I'm surprised you still want to be with me after all I've put you through." The sea turned pink to match the clouds. DongHae moved slightly and I turned to look up at him.
He was smiling.
"Are you sure I'm the stupid one?" he teased. "I think that after all you've put me through these past two years, I doubt anyone would ever make me feel the same way again."
"Really?" I raised an eyebrow. The sun was steadily sinking, making his eyes turn gold and his hair blonde. He enveloped me and laid his cheek against my head.
"You don't have to worry," he said lightly as the sun disappeared into the sea. We watched the pinkness in the sky start to turn violet.
"When you ask again, it's only you."
DongHae stared at JaeHwa's unmoving body. "JaeHwa, get up," he said, voice shaking. He cradled her body in his arms. "It's me, it's DongHae. Please get up," he looked around desperately. Where was his phone when he needed it? He nearly smacked himself on the head. In the car. Of course.
He looked back down at JaeHwa and noticed that her eyes were moving. He patted her cheek encouragingly. "Wake up, Jae," he whispered.
JaeHwa
I think I can open my eyes now. I've scared him enough, and I feel totally mean. But it's taking my all not to burst out laughing. I mean, he's obviously extremely worried, but I like him to be.
I also like the feel of his arms around me. It's so nice and warm.
I opened my eyes, making sure to make sure it was nice and slow. This was easier than I thought. His worried face came into view, hair blowing in the wind. His expression rapidly changed to relief. "Thank God," he said, hugging me close. I decided it was time to pretend some more. After all, he can wait for a few more minutes.
I pushed him away, rapidly backpedaling. "You again!" I exclaimed, eyes wide. "What do you want from me?" I noticed the shoe in his hand. Heh. I knew he'd find it. "Why do you have my shoe?!" I demanded. He was still kneeling, and I was still on the ground, and it was so comical that I nearly laughed, but I managed to contain it.
He got up slowly, crouched down next to me.
"I found it," he said, handing it to me. "And yes, it's me again. It's me, JaeHwa, it's DongHae. You still don't remember?" He looked so hurt. I felt like crying. I really am a monster, hurting him like this. I remained silent, still staring at him.
"Here, I'll help you put this on," he said. I sat up gingerly, as he gently pulled the sneaker on to my foot. Our eyes remained trained on each other the entire time as he slowly tied my laces.
"I... I need to tell you something," I whispered.
"You can tell me anything," he said, sitting next to me, the worried look returning to his eyes.
I looked into his eyes. "You... you are the stupidest boy in the world!" I exclaimed, promptly bursting into tears and flinging my arms around him. We both fell over, sprawling into the grass. Sorry grass! I seem to be flattening an awful lot of you.
"What...?" he said, his face a mask of confusion, but his arms wrapped around me. As usual.
"I'll never forget you again," I sobbed into his chest. I unwrapped my arms from him and pulled back, letting him sit up. I was still sitting on him though.
"Wait... you remember?" he said incredulously as he wiped a tear from my cheek.
I nodded. "It all came back a few days ago. I needed you alone... so I came here."
"So all that back there... you were pretending?"
I nodded again. "I'm really sorry," I said dolefully. "But I-"
DongHae placed a finger on my lips. "You don't have to explain," he said gently. "I'm just so happy that you're alright. That you finally remember."
I stared at him. "I never really forgot you," I whispered, taking his hand. "You were always in here." I placed his hand over my heart. "And you always will be."
"Payback for what I did to you in the hospital, huh?" he grinned. He moved his hand and placed it on my head, stroking my hair. "It feels good."
I flung my arms around him again. "I've missed you so much," he said, kissing me on the head. "Don't ever leave me again, Jae."
"I won't," I promised, as he pulled me closer. "Never again." I raised my head and closed my eyes as I felt his lips crash against mine.
Finally.
I fell backwards into the grass and he fell on top of me. "Crap, why do I always do that?" he frowned, starting to get up, but I pulled him back down on top of me.
"I don't really mind anymore," I said, as he grinned. I traced his jawline with one hand. "You look so tired," I said, pouting. "You need to take a break."
"Well, it's all the worry you've caused me," he joked, pulling me back up. "Look, the sun's starting to go down."
I huddled against him as the sky turned into an artist's canvas of fiery colours. "It's so beautiful," I said. He lifted my chin to make me look at him.
"And so are you." He leant down to kiss me softly on the lips. I closed my eyes and our hands intertwined.
"I'll remember this moment," I said, huddling back down against him. "Even if... we end up not being together forever." The peachy-pink tinged clouds looked so cotton candy-like.
"What are you talking about?" DongHae laughed.
"You mean you think we'll be together forever?" I asked, surprised. "I'm surprised you still want to be with me after all I've put you through." The sea turned pink to match the clouds. DongHae moved slightly and I turned to look up at him.
He was smiling.
"Are you sure I'm the stupid one?" he teased. "I think that after all you've put me through these past two years, I doubt anyone would ever make me feel the same way again."
"Really?" I raised an eyebrow. The sun was steadily sinking, making his eyes turn gold and his hair blonde. He enveloped me and laid his cheek against my head.
"You don't have to worry," he said lightly as the sun disappeared into the sea. We watched the pinkness in the sky start to turn violet.
"When you ask again, it's only you."
THE END.
OMG, sooo sorry if the ending is really bad,
but I seriously couldn't think of a cheesier
way to end this.
Thanks to all those who followed to the end!
♥
OMG, sooo sorry if the ending is really bad,
but I seriously couldn't think of a cheesier
way to end this.
Thanks to all those who followed to the end!
♥
27.2.10
Chapter 33
DongHae
"DongHae, where are you going?!" Teukie hyung yelled as I sprinted to the door, car keys in hand.
"I'm going to look for JaeHwa!" I yelled back.
"WHAT?!" Everyone who heard me exploded.
"Please explain to them, Hyukkie," I said pleadingly. He patted me on the back.
"Don't worry, I'll take care of them. You just go."
I pulled him into a hug. "I love you, Lee HyukJae."
He laughed, pulling back. "I love you too, Lee DongHae, now go! And update me if you find anything!"
I ran out the door, leaving my personal manager to take care of the others.
JaeHwa
Of all things to forget at a moment like this, it's where I put my handphone.
Oh, and DongHae's phone number.
I wrapped my jacket closer around me. I hadn't planned on it being this windy, although winter really just finished and we've headed into spring.
I hadn't planned on being on YeongJong Island, Incheon either, but for some reason I had to be near a beach.
Maybe it reminds me even more of the time in Japan.
With DongHae.
I stared into the blue, sitting down on the grass. Long stemmed flowers waved in the wind. They really were pretty. This had to be the highest point on the island. I could see everything from here. All the cars, flashing in the sun, like when people hang CDs on trees to reflect the light.
Pretty.
My mind drifted off, thinking back to the other night when I'd played the song. Super Junior's new song. I did that for the next few nights, just left it on replay.
Of course, given my noobiness, I didn't know how to work the iPod. Apart from playing it and turning it off.
So imagine my surprise when, a couple of nights later, the song ended and I tried turning it off. With my eyes closed. I was sleepy. Instead, something else began to play.
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"JaeHwa," said a voice. My eyes instantly snapped open. That voice again. I heard it every night. And I'd heard it from that guy who visited me in the hospital. "If you're listening to this, then congratulations! You've learnt how to use aniPod shuffle !" I smiled in the darkness. Why was I smiling?! "It's February now. You've been out of it for the whole of January. HyunJae tries to visit you as often as possible, but she's tied up a lot these days. I've tried to too, but believe me, it isn't as easy at it seems." Pause. I let out a breath. Nothing there. Hang on. I don't even know this guy, but he knows me since I'd been in a coma...
"I don't really know what to say, to be honest. It's weird talking to nothing. Oh wait, I meant it's weird talking to... a computer. Because I've sort of gotten used to talking to nothing." There's a sudden sound of hands slapping against a mouth and then muttering. "Shit! How... do... you... erase on this thing...? I'm so screwed..." I start giggling for a bit. Then I hear him again. "Ah well... umm, sorry about that. Because if you're listening to this, you're definitely awake, and you probably know what I'm talking about... I'm sorry. And JaeHwa... I'm sorry for everything. For hurting you back then. For giving up so easily. For not being able to protect you as much as I like. For..." His voice has started shaking. I hear a small muffled whimper. Tears start to pool in my eyes. "Okay, I'm calm. One last thing before I have to go. I'm sorry that I wasn't there to save you from the car. And I'm waiting for you. I'll never get tired of waiting. And if you never hear this, JaeHwa, I'll go wherever you go. For you. Even to the after life. I'll always be there for you. I... I love you. "
His voice disappears and I'm greeted with the first sounds of 'It's You'.
I turn the iPod off and place on the bedside table.
I love you. Am I going crazy? Did I use to have some past life I don't remember?
I lay down, staring at the ceiling. I sure didn't feel sleepy anymore.
Even so, I closed my eyes. Just to try and coax my brain to stop all activity.
And that was when it started.
Everything was a blur. Seeing him come out off SM. I was hurtling through this at breakneck speed. Me falling. Everything going black.
I snapped my eyes open, breathing hard. What happened? I felt a little shiver going through me at the thought of a movie in my head. I slapped myself. What was wrong with me?!
I settled down and closed my eyes.
And nothing happened.
"No, come back, come back!" I whispered urgently. "I want to know what happened!" Nothing but blankness. I sighed. Oh well. Might as well get some sleep then.
I snuggled down into the covers and promptly fell asleep.
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And then I woke up the next day. Which just happened to be yesterday.
And when I say I woke up, I mean I really woke up. I remembered everything.
I remembered the night I stayed over. The entire school holidays. Finding an unconcious MinYoung in DongHae's bed.
I remembered KyuHyun's accident. Getting beaten up by MinYoung. Gaining JunSu as a best friend. The first kiss. The break up. Moving to Japan. Seeing Super Junior again. Getting back with DongHae.
And then the accident.
And forgetting everything that was most of what was important in my life.
But I remember now.
I remember everything.
And I know that I want to see DongHae. Alone.
I also remember how he would simply drop everything and anything for me, especially at this point of time... when I supposedly don't remember him.
So of course I'd make myself 'missing', but really just being gone long enough (and without telling anybody) to make the people worry. Which I'm sure they already have.
And here I am, chilling at YeongJong island, pretty sure that DongHae's on the way here right now. After all... he's my supposed other half.
DongHae
I can't believe she'd do something as stupid as running away.
I mean, it hasn't even been a month since she woke up, and she can't even remember her way around the place... and so much would have changed since the 'last' time she saw them... like the trains or something.
So why the heck am I driving to Incheon?!
As far as I know, she's never been there before.
Of course, there's this little hope inside that she's gotten her memory back and she's gone somewhere close to the beach just to think. It's only a hope, of course. But sometimes hopes come true.
Anyway, I told her mum I'd check the coastal areas... and YeongJong Island is a coastal area. And a pretty close one, at that.
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Nearly at the end of the bridge. 300 meters seems pretty long at this stage.
I parked the car and got out, hurrying over to the man standing at the toll.
"Ahjusshi, have you seen a girl come through here?" I asked, breathless.
He looked me up and down, and his eyes widened slightly. "I think I've seen you before somewhere," he replied, the wind making a bit hard for me to hear. "Aren't you in that huge group of singers that my granddaughter is so in love with?"
I smiled slightly. "Well, I don't know, do I, ahjusshi?"
"I think you are," he said, nodding his head. "Wait a minute." He went into the tollbooth and brought out a slip of paper. "Could you please sign this for my granddaughter?" he asked, giving me a pen.
My grin widened. "What's your granddaughter's name?" I asked.
"SooYoung." I signed it quickly, added a small message and gave it to him. "Could you please tell me if you saw a girl come past here?"
"Lots of girls come through here, son," he replied, eyes twinkling. I took a deep breath, willing myself not to lose it.
"She's about this tall," I motioned with my hand. "Has medium length black hair, probably wearing a hooded jumper and trousers and sneakers." He cocked his head.
"Why are you looking for her?" he asked. Is she that special? She sounds very ordinary."
"Yes, ahjusshi," I replied, as calmly as I could. "She's very very important to me."
"She looked ordinary too," he continued calmly. He looked up at me and smiled. "Go up to the highest point of the island. You'll find her there." He looked up behind me. I turned and gazed in the same direction. "Look, can't you see her?" he stated, still smiling. "She likes it up there. I can tell."
I couldn't see anyone, but I turned back to him. "Thank you so much, ahjusshi." I said, smiling. He clasped my hands in his.
"She's been waiting for you," he said.
JaeHwa
I scrunched my knees to my chest, arms around them tight. It's so peaceful up here. I could sit here all day. I looked down at the sea, the beach, the bridge. The I turned to look at the tollbooth, where the nice ahjusshi there had told me where the highest point of the island was.
He was talking to somebody. I grinned, ready to wave, when I suddenly noticed that he was talking to someone. I strained my eyes, trying to make out who it was. Then my breath caught.
It was DongHae.
I burst into a grin. The boy really did know me after all.
I watched him bowing to the tool-keeper, then running up the track that led him here. I shivered with anticipation. Boy, was he going to be surprised.
DongHae
"JaeHwa!" I yelled as I sprinted into the clearing. I stopped, hands on knees, catching my breath. I doubted I'd ever run that far that fast in my life. I scanned my surroundings as I panted. This is a nice enough place. Peaceful, at the very least. Hey... what's that? A spot of colour among the flowers were the grass was slightly flattened. I walked slowly over.
It was a shoe.
That wasn't all. It was JaeHwa's shoe.
I picked it up, desperately looking around. "JaeHwa," I whispered, half to myself. "JaeHwa!" I yelled. "JaeHwa, where -" I spotted a flash of colour hidden in the long grass.
I stopped, breath catching in my throat. My heart stopped. "No," I whispered, then sprinted forward.
I dropped to my knees beside the figure, swallowing back the lump in my throat. "JaeHwa," I whimpered.
"DongHae, where are you going?!" Teukie hyung yelled as I sprinted to the door, car keys in hand.
"I'm going to look for JaeHwa!" I yelled back.
"WHAT?!" Everyone who heard me exploded.
"Please explain to them, Hyukkie," I said pleadingly. He patted me on the back.
"Don't worry, I'll take care of them. You just go."
I pulled him into a hug. "I love you, Lee HyukJae."
He laughed, pulling back. "I love you too, Lee DongHae, now go! And update me if you find anything!"
I ran out the door, leaving my personal manager to take care of the others.
JaeHwa
Of all things to forget at a moment like this, it's where I put my handphone.
Oh, and DongHae's phone number.
I wrapped my jacket closer around me. I hadn't planned on it being this windy, although winter really just finished and we've headed into spring.
I hadn't planned on being on YeongJong Island, Incheon either, but for some reason I had to be near a beach.
Maybe it reminds me even more of the time in Japan.
With DongHae.
I stared into the blue, sitting down on the grass. Long stemmed flowers waved in the wind. They really were pretty. This had to be the highest point on the island. I could see everything from here. All the cars, flashing in the sun, like when people hang CDs on trees to reflect the light.
Pretty.
My mind drifted off, thinking back to the other night when I'd played the song. Super Junior's new song. I did that for the next few nights, just left it on replay.
Of course, given my noobiness, I didn't know how to work the iPod. Apart from playing it and turning it off.
So imagine my surprise when, a couple of nights later, the song ended and I tried turning it off. With my eyes closed. I was sleepy. Instead, something else began to play.
---
"JaeHwa," said a voice. My eyes instantly snapped open. That voice again. I heard it every night. And I'd heard it from that guy who visited me in the hospital. "If you're listening to this, then congratulations! You've learnt how to use an
"I don't really know what to say, to be honest. It's weird talking to nothing. Oh wait, I meant it's weird talking to... a computer. Because I've sort of gotten used to talking to nothing." There's a sudden sound of hands slapping against a mouth and then muttering. "Shit! How... do... you... erase on this thing...? I'm so screwed..." I start giggling for a bit. Then I hear him again. "Ah well... umm, sorry about that. Because if you're listening to this, you're definitely awake, and you probably know what I'm talking about... I'm sorry. And JaeHwa... I'm sorry for everything. For hurting you back then. For giving up so easily. For not being able to protect you as much as I like. For..." His voice has started shaking. I hear a small muffled whimper. Tears start to pool in my eyes. "Okay, I'm calm. One last thing before I have to go. I'm sorry that I wasn't there to save you from the car. And I'm waiting for you. I'll never get tired of waiting. And if you never hear this, JaeHwa, I'll go wherever you go. For you. Even to the after life. I'll always be there for you. I... I love you. "
His voice disappears and I'm greeted with the first sounds of 'It's You'.
I turn the iPod off and place on the bedside table.
I love you. Am I going crazy? Did I use to have some past life I don't remember?
I lay down, staring at the ceiling. I sure didn't feel sleepy anymore.
Even so, I closed my eyes. Just to try and coax my brain to stop all activity.
And that was when it started.
Everything was a blur. Seeing him come out off SM. I was hurtling through this at breakneck speed. Me falling. Everything going black.
I snapped my eyes open, breathing hard. What happened? I felt a little shiver going through me at the thought of a movie in my head. I slapped myself. What was wrong with me?!
I settled down and closed my eyes.
And nothing happened.
"No, come back, come back!" I whispered urgently. "I want to know what happened!" Nothing but blankness. I sighed. Oh well. Might as well get some sleep then.
I snuggled down into the covers and promptly fell asleep.
---
And then I woke up the next day. Which just happened to be yesterday.
And when I say I woke up, I mean I really woke up. I remembered everything.
I remembered the night I stayed over. The entire school holidays. Finding an unconcious MinYoung in DongHae's bed.
I remembered KyuHyun's accident. Getting beaten up by MinYoung. Gaining JunSu as a best friend. The first kiss. The break up. Moving to Japan. Seeing Super Junior again. Getting back with DongHae.
And then the accident.
And forgetting everything that was most of what was important in my life.
But I remember now.
I remember everything.
And I know that I want to see DongHae. Alone.
I also remember how he would simply drop everything and anything for me, especially at this point of time... when I supposedly don't remember him.
So of course I'd make myself 'missing', but really just being gone long enough (and without telling anybody) to make the people worry. Which I'm sure they already have.
And here I am, chilling at YeongJong island, pretty sure that DongHae's on the way here right now. After all... he's my supposed other half.
DongHae
I can't believe she'd do something as stupid as running away.
I mean, it hasn't even been a month since she woke up, and she can't even remember her way around the place... and so much would have changed since the 'last' time she saw them... like the trains or something.
So why the heck am I driving to Incheon?!
As far as I know, she's never been there before.
Of course, there's this little hope inside that she's gotten her memory back and she's gone somewhere close to the beach just to think. It's only a hope, of course. But sometimes hopes come true.
Anyway, I told her mum I'd check the coastal areas... and YeongJong Island is a coastal area. And a pretty close one, at that.
---
Nearly at the end of the bridge. 300 meters seems pretty long at this stage.
I parked the car and got out, hurrying over to the man standing at the toll.
"Ahjusshi, have you seen a girl come through here?" I asked, breathless.
He looked me up and down, and his eyes widened slightly. "I think I've seen you before somewhere," he replied, the wind making a bit hard for me to hear. "Aren't you in that huge group of singers that my granddaughter is so in love with?"
I smiled slightly. "Well, I don't know, do I, ahjusshi?"
"I think you are," he said, nodding his head. "Wait a minute." He went into the tollbooth and brought out a slip of paper. "Could you please sign this for my granddaughter?" he asked, giving me a pen.
My grin widened. "What's your granddaughter's name?" I asked.
"SooYoung." I signed it quickly, added a small message and gave it to him. "Could you please tell me if you saw a girl come past here?"
"Lots of girls come through here, son," he replied, eyes twinkling. I took a deep breath, willing myself not to lose it.
"She's about this tall," I motioned with my hand. "Has medium length black hair, probably wearing a hooded jumper and trousers and sneakers." He cocked his head.
"Why are you looking for her?" he asked. Is she that special? She sounds very ordinary."
"Yes, ahjusshi," I replied, as calmly as I could. "She's very very important to me."
"She looked ordinary too," he continued calmly. He looked up at me and smiled. "Go up to the highest point of the island. You'll find her there." He looked up behind me. I turned and gazed in the same direction. "Look, can't you see her?" he stated, still smiling. "She likes it up there. I can tell."
I couldn't see anyone, but I turned back to him. "Thank you so much, ahjusshi." I said, smiling. He clasped my hands in his.
"She's been waiting for you," he said.
JaeHwa
I scrunched my knees to my chest, arms around them tight. It's so peaceful up here. I could sit here all day. I looked down at the sea, the beach, the bridge. The I turned to look at the tollbooth, where the nice ahjusshi there had told me where the highest point of the island was.
He was talking to somebody. I grinned, ready to wave, when I suddenly noticed that he was talking to someone. I strained my eyes, trying to make out who it was. Then my breath caught.
It was DongHae.
I burst into a grin. The boy really did know me after all.
I watched him bowing to the tool-keeper, then running up the track that led him here. I shivered with anticipation. Boy, was he going to be surprised.
DongHae
"JaeHwa!" I yelled as I sprinted into the clearing. I stopped, hands on knees, catching my breath. I doubted I'd ever run that far that fast in my life. I scanned my surroundings as I panted. This is a nice enough place. Peaceful, at the very least. Hey... what's that? A spot of colour among the flowers were the grass was slightly flattened. I walked slowly over.
It was a shoe.
That wasn't all. It was JaeHwa's shoe.
I picked it up, desperately looking around. "JaeHwa," I whispered, half to myself. "JaeHwa!" I yelled. "JaeHwa, where -" I spotted a flash of colour hidden in the long grass.
I stopped, breath catching in my throat. My heart stopped. "No," I whispered, then sprinted forward.
I dropped to my knees beside the figure, swallowing back the lump in my throat. "JaeHwa," I whimpered.
25.1.10
It's You Chapter 32
JaeHwa
"Who the hell was that guy?" I demanded when it was just Hyunnie and me. I was in total shock. I mean, he'd just put my hand over his heart! And I felt his heartbeat!
"Never mind that, did you feel anything Jae?" she demanded back.
"What do you mean never mind?!" I exclaimed.
"By meaning never mind!" she replied, looking as white as a sheet.
"Hyunnie.. are you okay?" I asked, feeling concerned.
"Look, I just need to know if you felt anything when you touched him," she said, looking me square in the eye.
"I..." I started, then did a quick mental flashback.
Flashback:
What are you going to do? I thought, as he picked up my hand. His own hand was shaking slightly, I could feel it. But it felt oddly comfortable to have him holding my hand. I felt like I could hang on to it forever.
Then I stiffened. After all, this was a total stranger holding my hand. I brought my gaze up to his face. His eyes were watching me intently, as if waiting for a reaction. "What do you want from me?" I felt like asking.
"Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything to you," he said. And I was instantly transported back to a place. Flashes of sunset colours. Rain. A phone box. Fried rice? A racing game on a television screen. A room full of pink. A boy and a girl sitting in one bed, talking. I couldn't see their faces. Everything was so blurry. The boy slipping his arm around the girl's waist as they fell asleep. "I won't do anything to you, relax," said a familiar voice.
Then I was dumped back into the hospital room.
And felt him place my hand on his chest. Over his heart. I stared at my hand. I stared at him. I felt like I was falling. I could feel his heartbeat through the layers of clothes. My mind left the room again. I could feel my breath getting faster, but I could see nothing but a dark room. A boy and a girl were sitting on the bed. No conversation, but I watched the boy place the girls' hand over his heart. Watched as their heads slowly drifted closer to each other.
I felt like I was in a dream. I snapped back to reality. This face in front of me... I lifted my other hand and touched his face slowly, running down his jaw, placing it behind his neck. I felt like I could hug this person. This...
DongHae. A voice in my head. DongHae? East Sea?
What re you doing?! my mind screamed at me. I blinked and fell back to earth with a thud that no one heard. What...? Why am I touching his face?
"What are you doing?!" I yelled, and gave him such a hard push that he fell right off the bed.
Hyunnie was looking at me.
"So....?" she said gently.
I swallowed. "Nothing," I said, not quite catching her eye. "There was nothing."
---
When HyunJae and my parents left I lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling. The clock said it was 9pm. I felt exhausted. Too much information. Too much drama. Too much mystery.
Was it too much to say that I didn't feel anything? I'd definitely felt something. But I had no idea what it was. Maybe if I ignored it, it would go away.
I want it to go away. I was feeling so many different emotions. I felt like I'd explode.
I turned over on my side and looked at the single flower on my bedside table. Who'd put it there? I spotted the table's drawer and pulled it out. Just to see what was in it.
It was an iPod.
Just a small one, aniPod shuffle . No screen.
I pulled it out of the drawer and plugged in, pressing the play button.
다른 사람 필요 없어 난 그냥 너라고
다시 한번 물어봐도 난 그냥 너라고.
Darun saram piryo eobseo, nan geunyang neorago
Dashi hanbeon muleo bwado, nan geunyang neorago.
I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you
When you ask again, it’s only you
That voice again.
I stifled a sob.
But I couldn't stop the tears from falling.
But these tears... for what?
DongHae
I cried on the way home. I didn't want to, but somehow I just couldn't keep them in.
Kyu squeezed my shoulder symphatetically from the backseat.
Hyukkie had no choice but to keep both hands on the wheel.
None of us made a sound the whole journey back.
Well, apart from the occasional whimper from me. That was hard to keep in.
RyeoWook was the one who opened the door.
And with RyeoWook you kinda know what to expect.
He took one look at my face and his mouth dropped open.
And his lower lip began to tremble.
"Wookie, it's not -" HyukJae started, darting forward to stop him, but RyeoWook had turned violently, walking into YeSung hyung.
"Ooph, Wookie, I think you've winded me," YeSung hyung started, but Wookie buried his head in his shoulder and started howling. "What...?" YeSung looked around questioningly while patting Wookie on the head.
Then he spotted us.
Or, more accurately, he spotted me.
"Oh my God," he said, eyes wide. "Hae..." He put a hand up to his mouth.
But before he could say another word, SungMin had barreled right into us. "DongHae...! What's going on?! How is she?!" he squealed, then pulled back from me when I gave no reaction. I was still numb. He searched my face and his eyes rested on mine. Judging from the look on his face, the were probably as red as the strawberries he loved.
"Hae!" he yelled, shaking me. "Tell me what's going on! You're scaring me!"
Hyuk darted forward again. He seemed to understand I was still incapable of... anything really. And Kyu never let go of my shoulders. Another time when I feel like he's the hyung, not me.
"It's not what you think," said Hyuk quickly.
"Where's JaeHwa?!" SungMin yelled, almost hysterical. "She's... she's not..."
"No!" said HyukJae. "She's alive hyung, she's awake...!" He didn't get to say another word after that because SungMin had pulled him into a hug so tight that it looked like an anaconda crushing it's prey slowly to death.
"Hyung, I think that HyukJae hyung's kinda... umm... dying," said Kyu, gently steering me into the room. He pushed me down onto the sofa. "I'll get you a glass of water, hyung." He walked into the kitchen. In the background I could hear SungMin yelling that JaeHwa was alive! JaeHwa's alive, everyone!
Yes Min, JaeHwa's alive, but she doesn't remember you, me or anyone else in this room. So why are you wasting your breath?
Suddenly the others were all around me, sitting next to me, on the floor, standing. Just generally being there. I don't even remember them coming out of their rooms, just them being there.
So how many minutes had passed since I'd sat down?
And why was Kyu taking so long to get me that water?
I felt like I was in a press conference. All these questions, all about JaeHwa.
JaeHwa.
What would I do without Hyukkie. My manager when everything falls apart. And Kyu. My assistant who's more like a caretaker. I'd only need KiBum now, but he's away. I wish he was here. It doesn't feel like Super Junior when one of us is missing.
Hyukkie answered all the questions for me. Everyone just assumed that she was fine, that she remembered us. Well, I wouldn't blame them, if I wasn't there I would have assumed it too.
Finally, a lull in all the clammering voices. I was starting to get a headache. I looked down at my hands, clasped tightly around the glass of water. They were shaking. Any minute now and the glass would spill over. Thank God I hadn't taken even a sip. My stomach felt like it would spill over soon.
"There's one thing you should know hyungs," said Kyu, taking advantage of the momentary silence. "Jae... she's lost some of her memory. She can't remember any of us..." I saw him glance swiftly at me. "... including DongHae hyung."
The world exploded again.
I can't take this anymore.
"Shut up!" I yelled, standing up. I felt so... pissed. So drained. So angry at being forgotten this easily. I felt like hunting down the driver who did this to Jae and knocking his memory out.
"Calm down DongHae," said Teukie hyung, standing up slowly.
I stared at him, breathing wildly. My heart was hammering nineteen to the dozen. I've been angry with myself before - you should have seen me when I broke it off with JaeHwa... I would have killed myself if Hyukkie hadn't intervened - but not, never with the other members. Not as angry as this.
"Calm down?" I asked, disbelievingly. "You're telling me to calm down?" I saw SungMin, HanKyung and KangIn hyung standing up, and SiWon starting to move forward. I nearly snorted. Did they think I was going to hit someone? "The girl that I love is sitting in a hospital ward, with no inkling of who I am at all, and you're telling me to calm down?!"
"DongHae, she'll recover. One day, and it might even be tomorrow, she might wake up and remember you," said HeeChul hyung, comfortingly. I surveyed the room, seeing RyeoWook huddled up with YeSung and Teukie hyung, and felt more anger boiling in my very soul.
"We understand, DongHae," said SiWon earnestly. "Just -"
Is there any way to go beyond boiling point? Because I seem to have gone past it. Way past it.
"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING!" I screamed, throwing the glass of water at the wall. The glass shattered around us. I turned and ran into my room, slamming the door behind me and leaning against it.
Oh God, what have I just done?
---
EunHyuk
He hasn't been talking.
It's been a week now.
We're debuting (again) soon.
When we get back from training he goes straight to his room.
SungMin says he doesn't do anything. Doesn't say anything.
What a time to get depressed.
We have a gazillion new things to do, even though we've already filmed the new MV for the title song (not releasing anything at this point). It's hard when he's not communicating.
Ah, why am I always the one put up to this?
They know I'm not good at talking... especially when Hae's being like this.
Oh well, practice makes perfect, I guess.
I knock on the door.
"Hae?" I venture.
No reply.
As if I wasn't expecting that.
I timidly turn the doorknob and slip in. Like a cat.
Somebody tell me why the heck I feel like I've committed an offense.
There he is. Sitting facing the window, clutching a pillow. I round the chair til I'm facing him. His face looks like it's made of marble.
Damn. DongHae's turned cyborg. Like in BoA sunbae's music video.
"DongHae..." I say, dragging up another chair. "Look, you know I'm not good to these things. But the others are really worried about you and..."
He turns to stare blankly at me.
Damn, I'm getting the creeps now.
"And... we need you right now," I decide to continue like nothing's happened. Like my skin isn't getting goosebumps. "Because the album's going to release soon, and we're all busy but..."
"I know. I'm in the way."
Oh gosh, did he just talk? A miracle! DongHae's talking!
"You're not in the way," I say patiently. "You're not in it enough. Don't you think you're taking this a bit far...?"
I instantly regret saying the words as soon as they're out of my mouth. He's giving me the blank look again.
"A bit far...?" he repeats quietly. Then he switches back to almost normal DongHae. "What do you mean a bit far?!" he says angrily.
"Let me explain," I say quickly, holding up a hand. He deflates back into the chair, looking very tired suddenly. "I know that you're like this because JaeHwa's... in this state... but shouldn't you be doing something about it? Instead of sitting here? Shouldn't you be there by her side every moment you've got, trying to make her remember? I know I'd do that if that happened to Hyunnie..." I cringe slightly at the thought. Never.
"I..." DongHae starts, looking a little taken aback. He looks out of the window again. "It's just that I don't know if I want her to remember, Hyukkie," he says. "I don't want her to remember... the pain I put her through again."
This boy really is impossible sometimes.
"DongHae, she is (was, I think) in love with you, she doesn't care about all that anymore!" I say urgently, shaking him slightly. "Why the hell are you still like this?! I thought you'd gotten over this!"
"Looks like it started again, huh Hyukkie?" he replies, attempting to smile. It doesn't come off right.
At that moment his phone rings. He pulls it out of his pocket, glancing at the screen.
"Do you know this number?" he asks, frowning a little. I shake my head. "Ah, what the heck," he says, flipping the phone open.
"Hello?" he says. "Nuguseyo? Who is this?" He listens for a while, his eyes growing wider every second. "But... how did you get my number?" he asks. More talk. "Ah, of course," he says, eyes shining.
Can I know what the heck is going on? I tug at his sleeve but he shrugs me off, raising a finger to his lips.
Then his expression changes. His mouth drop opens. Worry starts to settle on his face. "What?!" he exclaims. "But... isn't she... how.... when?" Talk. Hysterical yelling? "I'll go now. I'll check the coastal areas. Call me when you find anything!"
He hangs up, looking at me.
"DongHae, what...?"
"JaeHwa's gone," he replies, jumping out of the chair and out the door.
"Who the hell was that guy?" I demanded when it was just Hyunnie and me. I was in total shock. I mean, he'd just put my hand over his heart! And I felt his heartbeat!
"Never mind that, did you feel anything Jae?" she demanded back.
"What do you mean never mind?!" I exclaimed.
"By meaning never mind!" she replied, looking as white as a sheet.
"Hyunnie.. are you okay?" I asked, feeling concerned.
"Look, I just need to know if you felt anything when you touched him," she said, looking me square in the eye.
"I..." I started, then did a quick mental flashback.
Flashback:
What are you going to do? I thought, as he picked up my hand. His own hand was shaking slightly, I could feel it. But it felt oddly comfortable to have him holding my hand. I felt like I could hang on to it forever.
Then I stiffened. After all, this was a total stranger holding my hand. I brought my gaze up to his face. His eyes were watching me intently, as if waiting for a reaction. "What do you want from me?" I felt like asking.
"Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything to you," he said. And I was instantly transported back to a place. Flashes of sunset colours. Rain. A phone box. Fried rice? A racing game on a television screen. A room full of pink. A boy and a girl sitting in one bed, talking. I couldn't see their faces. Everything was so blurry. The boy slipping his arm around the girl's waist as they fell asleep. "I won't do anything to you, relax," said a familiar voice.
Then I was dumped back into the hospital room.
And felt him place my hand on his chest. Over his heart. I stared at my hand. I stared at him. I felt like I was falling. I could feel his heartbeat through the layers of clothes. My mind left the room again. I could feel my breath getting faster, but I could see nothing but a dark room. A boy and a girl were sitting on the bed. No conversation, but I watched the boy place the girls' hand over his heart. Watched as their heads slowly drifted closer to each other.
I felt like I was in a dream. I snapped back to reality. This face in front of me... I lifted my other hand and touched his face slowly, running down his jaw, placing it behind his neck. I felt like I could hug this person. This...
DongHae. A voice in my head. DongHae? East Sea?
What re you doing?! my mind screamed at me. I blinked and fell back to earth with a thud that no one heard. What...? Why am I touching his face?
"What are you doing?!" I yelled, and gave him such a hard push that he fell right off the bed.
Hyunnie was looking at me.
"So....?" she said gently.
I swallowed. "Nothing," I said, not quite catching her eye. "There was nothing."
---
When HyunJae and my parents left I lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling. The clock said it was 9pm. I felt exhausted. Too much information. Too much drama. Too much mystery.
Was it too much to say that I didn't feel anything? I'd definitely felt something. But I had no idea what it was. Maybe if I ignored it, it would go away.
I want it to go away. I was feeling so many different emotions. I felt like I'd explode.
I turned over on my side and looked at the single flower on my bedside table. Who'd put it there? I spotted the table's drawer and pulled it out. Just to see what was in it.
It was an iPod.
Just a small one, an
I pulled it out of the drawer and plugged in, pressing the play button.
다른 사람 필요 없어 난 그냥 너라고
다시 한번 물어봐도 난 그냥 너라고.
Darun saram piryo eobseo, nan geunyang neorago
Dashi hanbeon muleo bwado, nan geunyang neorago.
I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you
When you ask again, it’s only you
That voice again.
I stifled a sob.
But I couldn't stop the tears from falling.
But these tears... for what?
DongHae
I cried on the way home. I didn't want to, but somehow I just couldn't keep them in.
Kyu squeezed my shoulder symphatetically from the backseat.
Hyukkie had no choice but to keep both hands on the wheel.
None of us made a sound the whole journey back.
Well, apart from the occasional whimper from me. That was hard to keep in.
RyeoWook was the one who opened the door.
And with RyeoWook you kinda know what to expect.
He took one look at my face and his mouth dropped open.
And his lower lip began to tremble.
"Wookie, it's not -" HyukJae started, darting forward to stop him, but RyeoWook had turned violently, walking into YeSung hyung.
"Ooph, Wookie, I think you've winded me," YeSung hyung started, but Wookie buried his head in his shoulder and started howling. "What...?" YeSung looked around questioningly while patting Wookie on the head.
Then he spotted us.
Or, more accurately, he spotted me.
"Oh my God," he said, eyes wide. "Hae..." He put a hand up to his mouth.
But before he could say another word, SungMin had barreled right into us. "DongHae...! What's going on?! How is she?!" he squealed, then pulled back from me when I gave no reaction. I was still numb. He searched my face and his eyes rested on mine. Judging from the look on his face, the were probably as red as the strawberries he loved.
"Hae!" he yelled, shaking me. "Tell me what's going on! You're scaring me!"
Hyuk darted forward again. He seemed to understand I was still incapable of... anything really. And Kyu never let go of my shoulders. Another time when I feel like he's the hyung, not me.
"It's not what you think," said Hyuk quickly.
"Where's JaeHwa?!" SungMin yelled, almost hysterical. "She's... she's not..."
"No!" said HyukJae. "She's alive hyung, she's awake...!" He didn't get to say another word after that because SungMin had pulled him into a hug so tight that it looked like an anaconda crushing it's prey slowly to death.
"Hyung, I think that HyukJae hyung's kinda... umm... dying," said Kyu, gently steering me into the room. He pushed me down onto the sofa. "I'll get you a glass of water, hyung." He walked into the kitchen. In the background I could hear SungMin yelling that JaeHwa was alive! JaeHwa's alive, everyone!
Yes Min, JaeHwa's alive, but she doesn't remember you, me or anyone else in this room. So why are you wasting your breath?
Suddenly the others were all around me, sitting next to me, on the floor, standing. Just generally being there. I don't even remember them coming out of their rooms, just them being there.
So how many minutes had passed since I'd sat down?
And why was Kyu taking so long to get me that water?
I felt like I was in a press conference. All these questions, all about JaeHwa.
JaeHwa.
What would I do without Hyukkie. My manager when everything falls apart. And Kyu. My assistant who's more like a caretaker. I'd only need KiBum now, but he's away. I wish he was here. It doesn't feel like Super Junior when one of us is missing.
Hyukkie answered all the questions for me. Everyone just assumed that she was fine, that she remembered us. Well, I wouldn't blame them, if I wasn't there I would have assumed it too.
Finally, a lull in all the clammering voices. I was starting to get a headache. I looked down at my hands, clasped tightly around the glass of water. They were shaking. Any minute now and the glass would spill over. Thank God I hadn't taken even a sip. My stomach felt like it would spill over soon.
"There's one thing you should know hyungs," said Kyu, taking advantage of the momentary silence. "Jae... she's lost some of her memory. She can't remember any of us..." I saw him glance swiftly at me. "... including DongHae hyung."
The world exploded again.
I can't take this anymore.
"Shut up!" I yelled, standing up. I felt so... pissed. So drained. So angry at being forgotten this easily. I felt like hunting down the driver who did this to Jae and knocking his memory out.
"Calm down DongHae," said Teukie hyung, standing up slowly.
I stared at him, breathing wildly. My heart was hammering nineteen to the dozen. I've been angry with myself before - you should have seen me when I broke it off with JaeHwa... I would have killed myself if Hyukkie hadn't intervened - but not, never with the other members. Not as angry as this.
"Calm down?" I asked, disbelievingly. "You're telling me to calm down?" I saw SungMin, HanKyung and KangIn hyung standing up, and SiWon starting to move forward. I nearly snorted. Did they think I was going to hit someone? "The girl that I love is sitting in a hospital ward, with no inkling of who I am at all, and you're telling me to calm down?!"
"DongHae, she'll recover. One day, and it might even be tomorrow, she might wake up and remember you," said HeeChul hyung, comfortingly. I surveyed the room, seeing RyeoWook huddled up with YeSung and Teukie hyung, and felt more anger boiling in my very soul.
"We understand, DongHae," said SiWon earnestly. "Just -"
Is there any way to go beyond boiling point? Because I seem to have gone past it. Way past it.
"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING!" I screamed, throwing the glass of water at the wall. The glass shattered around us. I turned and ran into my room, slamming the door behind me and leaning against it.
Oh God, what have I just done?
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EunHyuk
He hasn't been talking.
It's been a week now.
We're debuting (again) soon.
When we get back from training he goes straight to his room.
SungMin says he doesn't do anything. Doesn't say anything.
What a time to get depressed.
We have a gazillion new things to do, even though we've already filmed the new MV for the title song (not releasing anything at this point). It's hard when he's not communicating.
Ah, why am I always the one put up to this?
They know I'm not good at talking... especially when Hae's being like this.
Oh well, practice makes perfect, I guess.
I knock on the door.
"Hae?" I venture.
No reply.
As if I wasn't expecting that.
I timidly turn the doorknob and slip in. Like a cat.
Somebody tell me why the heck I feel like I've committed an offense.
There he is. Sitting facing the window, clutching a pillow. I round the chair til I'm facing him. His face looks like it's made of marble.
Damn. DongHae's turned cyborg. Like in BoA sunbae's music video.
"DongHae..." I say, dragging up another chair. "Look, you know I'm not good to these things. But the others are really worried about you and..."
He turns to stare blankly at me.
Damn, I'm getting the creeps now.
"And... we need you right now," I decide to continue like nothing's happened. Like my skin isn't getting goosebumps. "Because the album's going to release soon, and we're all busy but..."
"I know. I'm in the way."
Oh gosh, did he just talk? A miracle! DongHae's talking!
"You're not in the way," I say patiently. "You're not in it enough. Don't you think you're taking this a bit far...?"
I instantly regret saying the words as soon as they're out of my mouth. He's giving me the blank look again.
"A bit far...?" he repeats quietly. Then he switches back to almost normal DongHae. "What do you mean a bit far?!" he says angrily.
"Let me explain," I say quickly, holding up a hand. He deflates back into the chair, looking very tired suddenly. "I know that you're like this because JaeHwa's... in this state... but shouldn't you be doing something about it? Instead of sitting here? Shouldn't you be there by her side every moment you've got, trying to make her remember? I know I'd do that if that happened to Hyunnie..." I cringe slightly at the thought. Never.
"I..." DongHae starts, looking a little taken aback. He looks out of the window again. "It's just that I don't know if I want her to remember, Hyukkie," he says. "I don't want her to remember... the pain I put her through again."
This boy really is impossible sometimes.
"DongHae, she is (was, I think) in love with you, she doesn't care about all that anymore!" I say urgently, shaking him slightly. "Why the hell are you still like this?! I thought you'd gotten over this!"
"Looks like it started again, huh Hyukkie?" he replies, attempting to smile. It doesn't come off right.
At that moment his phone rings. He pulls it out of his pocket, glancing at the screen.
"Do you know this number?" he asks, frowning a little. I shake my head. "Ah, what the heck," he says, flipping the phone open.
"Hello?" he says. "Nuguseyo? Who is this?" He listens for a while, his eyes growing wider every second. "But... how did you get my number?" he asks. More talk. "Ah, of course," he says, eyes shining.
Can I know what the heck is going on? I tug at his sleeve but he shrugs me off, raising a finger to his lips.
Then his expression changes. His mouth drop opens. Worry starts to settle on his face. "What?!" he exclaims. "But... isn't she... how.... when?" Talk. Hysterical yelling? "I'll go now. I'll check the coastal areas. Call me when you find anything!"
He hangs up, looking at me.
"DongHae, what...?"
"JaeHwa's gone," he replies, jumping out of the chair and out the door.
24.1.10
It's You Chapter 31
JunSu
I can't say I wasn't surprised...
But....
WHAT AN IDIOT...
HyunJae
I know I told JaeHwa that he was prepared..
but he so obviously wasn't.
Can I run away now?
I hadn't even told my parents about Hyukkie, though he said we should soon.
That's beside the point.
Oh Hae... you're such an idiot sometimes.
KyuHyun
WHAT THE HELL, DONGHAE HYUNG.
...
EunHyuk
I nearly face-palmed myself. I saw it coming but... not now. Jeez.
I guess none of us were really prepared for JaeHwa's mum's reaction. Or her dad's.
"How long has this been going on?" asked JaeHwa's mum. I nearly keeled over in shock. She didn't sound surprised at all. Or even in shock. Just perfectly normal.
"Less than 2 years," DongHae replied quietly.
"And she knew?" asked Jae's dad.
"We... we were kind of together," said DongHae. He sounded really strained. Maybe he was thinking that this was a bad idea. Like it was.
"I knew it," sighed JaeHwa's mum.
JunSu, Kyu, Hyun, DongHae and I stared at each other, in shock.
"W-What...?" Hyun managed to stammer out.
"Well, JaeHwa was always in her room, always on the phone, always on the computer so we guessed that something was up," said JaeHwa's mum with a smile. She looked at DongHae. "But it stopped for a while when we went to Japan. Did something happen?"
"Something came up," said DongHae faintly.
"Well, it recently started up again, so you got back together didn't you?" she presisted.
Hae could do nothing but nod.
Man, if I were him I'd be almost dead on the ground. I mean, Jae's mum was smiling.
"So... umm... ahjumma... you're... not mad?" I asked.
She looked at me. "Mad, why should I be?" she said, laughing lightly. JaeHwa's dad was smiling slightly. The hell...?
JaeHwa's mum turned to look closely at DongHae. "Aaah," she said, nodding slightly. "I know where I've seen you before. You're part of Super Junior, aren't you?"
Kyu looked ready to faint. I felt like bursting into hysterical laughter. Or running away. Or something.
JaeHwa's dad walked up to Hae. "How old are you?" he asked.
"I-I'm 23 this year," he answered, looking ready to run.
JaeHwa's dad nodded. "Not bad. Don't look so scared, I just want to thank you."
"Thank me? For what?" asked Hae, looking even more bewildered. Poor guy. This definitely wasn't what he expected.
But before JaeHwa's dad could answer, the doors opened and the doctor billowed out. We rushed towards him. He held up a hand to stop our flood of questions and pointed to the corner. It was pretty comical. We all turned and watched a wheelchair being pushed into view.
Oh gosh.
DongHae
I couldn't stop the huge grin from spreading over my face when I saw her. She was thinner than what she used to be, that was expected, but apart from that she was exactly the same. Nothing had changed. It was JaeHwa.
"JaeHwa!" Hyun squealed, running towards the wheelchair. We followed in a less hysterical pace, although JaeHwa's parents were clearly restraining themselves from sprinting after HyunJae. I know I was.
Jae broke into a wide grin when she saw HyunJae. "HyunJae" she exclaimed, holding out her arms. HyunJae gave her a huge hug, then turned to us.
"Umma, Appa!" JaeHwa cried out happily.
"Oh JaeHwa, you're really back," cried her mum, hugging her.
When she let go, Jae turned to the rest of us with a fading smile.
"JunSu sshi!" she said, sounding surprised. "What are you doing here?"
She turned to HyunJae. "Ooh, don't tell me you two are together!" she teased.
JunSu, Hyuk and I exchanged glances. What was going on...?
A slight tug on my sleeve. The doctor motioned towards us. I went towards him slowly, and Kyu, JunSu and Hyuk followed me.
"What's going on?" asked JunSu when we were out of hearing range.
"It seems that when she hit her head, parts of her memory were slightly damaged, so there are some thing she can't remember," the doctor explained.
"But she remembers HyunJae! And her parents!" JunSu protested, clearly put out.
"It seems that only the recent years have been erased," said the doctor.
This was NOT happening. This kind of thing only happened in stories. In movies. In... music videos!
"How long is recent...?" asked Hyukkie. "As in... how many years?"
"I'd say about 2 - 3 years," the doctor replied. At that moment his pager went off, and he looked at it. "Sorry, I've got to go now," he said, before hurrying off.
The 4 of us collapsed on to the waiting chairs.
KyuHyun
We all looked at each other.
"Now what do we do?" JunSu asked. "She doesn't remember any of us, well she does remember me, but not as the best friend. She probably doesn't even know you guys anymore."
"But we debuted more than 3 years ago," I protested. "I mean... they debuted." A sudden thought struck me. "Oh shit, that means I don't exist in her world anymore." I felt horror rising. I felt sick.
"But she said she didn't know Super Junior when she first met us," DongHae hyung said, looking as bewildered as when JaeHwa's parents had approved him.
"I think she was lying, DongHae hyung," said JunSu. "JaeHwa and HyunJae were gaga over you. They even joined the school's fan club."
"What?!" DongHae exclaimed. Then he shook his head and sat back down, sighing. "Nevermind, that doesn't matter anymore."
"But she didn't give any reaction when she saw us," reasoned Hyukkie hyung.
"That's right..." I said.
"Oh hang on, I think they only joined like in 2006," JunSu said, brows furrowed. "Yeah, that's right." He looked at us. "Sorry guys, but I think you don't exist anymore."
"We'll see about that," said DongHae hyung, getting up and striding away. We jumped off the chairs and followed him.
I felt torn. I'd known her, loved her like a sister for 2 years. That was all gone. I don't exist anymore. Part of me wanted to disappear, let her get on with her life. But the other part of me wanted to make her remember, to get the old JaeHwa back.
JaeHwa
This was new. I'd never been in a hospital before. And where did HyunJae get that new hairstyle? She looks great! But they've told me it's 2009 now. I don't remember. I don't remember how I wound up here in the first place.
"You'll remember in time, Jae," said Hyunnie. I don't remember when she started calling me Jae. And I don't know why she had such an anxious look on her face.
I was wheeled back to my room, although I really felt like getting out of the chair and running around like a child. I felt... alive. I climbed willingly into bed, stretching out. Just like old times, when it was just HyunJae and me.
Umma and Appa left the room. Probably to talk to the doctor.
A knock on the door.
HyunJae went to open it, hanging her head as 4 guys entered the room. I wonder why JunSu's here. We'd never exchanged more than a few words in school, just the occasional smiles and the obligatory questions. And who were the other 3 guys? They looked familiar, like I'd seen them out of a magazine... or was it a newspaper? I can't remember. Two of them seem familiar anyway. The last guy, the tall one with the curly hair, I've never seen him in my life.
"Hello," I said, giving a tentative smile.
JunSu flopped into the couch nearby, his head in his hands.
The curly-haired guy sat down next to him, looking blank.
Umm, what?
One of the guys sat on my bed. He looked so familiar right now. And he looked like a dinosaur. Or was it a fish? No, the other guy looked more like a fish. The one with his arm around HyunJae?
"HyunJae, what?" I asked.
She smiled sadly at me. "Jae, this is HyukJae," she explained, gesturing.
"HyunJae and HyukJae? Gosh, you guys sound like twins," I said.
They smiled sheepishly.
"JaeHwa," said a voice. I'd heard this voice before. Somewhere. I turned to the dinosaur/fishy looking guy sitting in front of me. Whoa, since when did he get so close? I scrutinized his face. He was oddly cute/good looking.
"Fishy," I said. I don't know where it came from. It just popped out.
"Fishy," he breathed. It seemed to make sense to him.
"Mianhae," I said, pulling a face. "I don't know where that came from." But even so, something was telling me to reach out, to touch this guy. I lifted a hand, but dropped it again. I didn't know him. Why would I do something like that?
DongHae
I saw her raise her hand a little. Like she was going to touch me. But she let it fall. Was she feeling something?
Ah, whatever, I'll just take the chance.
"Who are you?" she asked, confusion clearly etched on her face.
"Don't you remember me?" I asked back. She met my gaze, then looked away.
"No, I don't, mianhae," she replied. "But I feel like I've seen you before. Somewhere. Like in a dream. Do you know me?"
I nearly smiled. Right now I know you more than you know yourself, you silly girl.
"Maybe you'll remember this," I said instead, picking up her hand. She stiffened a little, and her eyes travelled up to search my face. "Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything to you," I said, reminiscing about the time when we'd shared a bed and she went all worried. I felt like laughing and crying at the same time. With her eyes firmly on me, she relaxed. I brought her hand up to my chest, and placed it over my heart, my hand over hers.
It was a split second reaction. She gasped slightly, her breathing quickening. Almost in a daze, she brought her other hand up and touched my face.
It was over in a second. Her expression became shocked. "What are you doing?!" she exclaimed, pushing me away. I fell off the bed, landing on my butt. Kyu and JunSu jumped off the couch and helped me up. She stared at me with wide eyes. "I have no idea who you are... you had no right to do that!" she yelled at me, then looked down at her hand. Hyun sat down next to her.
"Just go, Hae," she said, looking sadly at me.
I turned away so nobody would see the single teardrop escape from my right eye.
EunHyuk
There was a connection. I saw it.
Her expression softened, and she almost looked like she remembered him.
She'd even said his nickname, Fishy.
Is it possible to pick a random word like that out of nowhere... which totally relates to him?
It's heartbreaking, it really is.
He thought no one saw him cry.
I did.
I can't say I wasn't surprised...
But....
WHAT AN IDIOT...
HyunJae
I know I told JaeHwa that he was prepared..
but he so obviously wasn't.
Can I run away now?
I hadn't even told my parents about Hyukkie, though he said we should soon.
That's beside the point.
Oh Hae... you're such an idiot sometimes.
KyuHyun
WHAT THE HELL, DONGHAE HYUNG.
...
EunHyuk
I nearly face-palmed myself. I saw it coming but... not now. Jeez.
I guess none of us were really prepared for JaeHwa's mum's reaction. Or her dad's.
"How long has this been going on?" asked JaeHwa's mum. I nearly keeled over in shock. She didn't sound surprised at all. Or even in shock. Just perfectly normal.
"Less than 2 years," DongHae replied quietly.
"And she knew?" asked Jae's dad.
"We... we were kind of together," said DongHae. He sounded really strained. Maybe he was thinking that this was a bad idea. Like it was.
"I knew it," sighed JaeHwa's mum.
JunSu, Kyu, Hyun, DongHae and I stared at each other, in shock.
"W-What...?" Hyun managed to stammer out.
"Well, JaeHwa was always in her room, always on the phone, always on the computer so we guessed that something was up," said JaeHwa's mum with a smile. She looked at DongHae. "But it stopped for a while when we went to Japan. Did something happen?"
"Something came up," said DongHae faintly.
"Well, it recently started up again, so you got back together didn't you?" she presisted.
Hae could do nothing but nod.
Man, if I were him I'd be almost dead on the ground. I mean, Jae's mum was smiling.
"So... umm... ahjumma... you're... not mad?" I asked.
She looked at me. "Mad, why should I be?" she said, laughing lightly. JaeHwa's dad was smiling slightly. The hell...?
JaeHwa's mum turned to look closely at DongHae. "Aaah," she said, nodding slightly. "I know where I've seen you before. You're part of Super Junior, aren't you?"
Kyu looked ready to faint. I felt like bursting into hysterical laughter. Or running away. Or something.
JaeHwa's dad walked up to Hae. "How old are you?" he asked.
"I-I'm 23 this year," he answered, looking ready to run.
JaeHwa's dad nodded. "Not bad. Don't look so scared, I just want to thank you."
"Thank me? For what?" asked Hae, looking even more bewildered. Poor guy. This definitely wasn't what he expected.
But before JaeHwa's dad could answer, the doors opened and the doctor billowed out. We rushed towards him. He held up a hand to stop our flood of questions and pointed to the corner. It was pretty comical. We all turned and watched a wheelchair being pushed into view.
Oh gosh.
DongHae
I couldn't stop the huge grin from spreading over my face when I saw her. She was thinner than what she used to be, that was expected, but apart from that she was exactly the same. Nothing had changed. It was JaeHwa.
"JaeHwa!" Hyun squealed, running towards the wheelchair. We followed in a less hysterical pace, although JaeHwa's parents were clearly restraining themselves from sprinting after HyunJae. I know I was.
Jae broke into a wide grin when she saw HyunJae. "HyunJae" she exclaimed, holding out her arms. HyunJae gave her a huge hug, then turned to us.
"Umma, Appa!" JaeHwa cried out happily.
"Oh JaeHwa, you're really back," cried her mum, hugging her.
When she let go, Jae turned to the rest of us with a fading smile.
"JunSu sshi!" she said, sounding surprised. "What are you doing here?"
She turned to HyunJae. "Ooh, don't tell me you two are together!" she teased.
JunSu, Hyuk and I exchanged glances. What was going on...?
A slight tug on my sleeve. The doctor motioned towards us. I went towards him slowly, and Kyu, JunSu and Hyuk followed me.
"What's going on?" asked JunSu when we were out of hearing range.
"It seems that when she hit her head, parts of her memory were slightly damaged, so there are some thing she can't remember," the doctor explained.
"But she remembers HyunJae! And her parents!" JunSu protested, clearly put out.
"It seems that only the recent years have been erased," said the doctor.
This was NOT happening. This kind of thing only happened in stories. In movies. In... music videos!
"How long is recent...?" asked Hyukkie. "As in... how many years?"
"I'd say about 2 - 3 years," the doctor replied. At that moment his pager went off, and he looked at it. "Sorry, I've got to go now," he said, before hurrying off.
The 4 of us collapsed on to the waiting chairs.
KyuHyun
We all looked at each other.
"Now what do we do?" JunSu asked. "She doesn't remember any of us, well she does remember me, but not as the best friend. She probably doesn't even know you guys anymore."
"But we debuted more than 3 years ago," I protested. "I mean... they debuted." A sudden thought struck me. "Oh shit, that means I don't exist in her world anymore." I felt horror rising. I felt sick.
"But she said she didn't know Super Junior when she first met us," DongHae hyung said, looking as bewildered as when JaeHwa's parents had approved him.
"I think she was lying, DongHae hyung," said JunSu. "JaeHwa and HyunJae were gaga over you. They even joined the school's fan club."
"What?!" DongHae exclaimed. Then he shook his head and sat back down, sighing. "Nevermind, that doesn't matter anymore."
"But she didn't give any reaction when she saw us," reasoned Hyukkie hyung.
"That's right..." I said.
"Oh hang on, I think they only joined like in 2006," JunSu said, brows furrowed. "Yeah, that's right." He looked at us. "Sorry guys, but I think you don't exist anymore."
"We'll see about that," said DongHae hyung, getting up and striding away. We jumped off the chairs and followed him.
I felt torn. I'd known her, loved her like a sister for 2 years. That was all gone. I don't exist anymore. Part of me wanted to disappear, let her get on with her life. But the other part of me wanted to make her remember, to get the old JaeHwa back.
JaeHwa
This was new. I'd never been in a hospital before. And where did HyunJae get that new hairstyle? She looks great! But they've told me it's 2009 now. I don't remember. I don't remember how I wound up here in the first place.
"You'll remember in time, Jae," said Hyunnie. I don't remember when she started calling me Jae. And I don't know why she had such an anxious look on her face.
I was wheeled back to my room, although I really felt like getting out of the chair and running around like a child. I felt... alive. I climbed willingly into bed, stretching out. Just like old times, when it was just HyunJae and me.
Umma and Appa left the room. Probably to talk to the doctor.
A knock on the door.
HyunJae went to open it, hanging her head as 4 guys entered the room. I wonder why JunSu's here. We'd never exchanged more than a few words in school, just the occasional smiles and the obligatory questions. And who were the other 3 guys? They looked familiar, like I'd seen them out of a magazine... or was it a newspaper? I can't remember. Two of them seem familiar anyway. The last guy, the tall one with the curly hair, I've never seen him in my life.
"Hello," I said, giving a tentative smile.
JunSu flopped into the couch nearby, his head in his hands.
The curly-haired guy sat down next to him, looking blank.
Umm, what?
One of the guys sat on my bed. He looked so familiar right now. And he looked like a dinosaur. Or was it a fish? No, the other guy looked more like a fish. The one with his arm around HyunJae?
"HyunJae, what?" I asked.
She smiled sadly at me. "Jae, this is HyukJae," she explained, gesturing.
"HyunJae and HyukJae? Gosh, you guys sound like twins," I said.
They smiled sheepishly.
"JaeHwa," said a voice. I'd heard this voice before. Somewhere. I turned to the dinosaur/fishy looking guy sitting in front of me. Whoa, since when did he get so close? I scrutinized his face. He was oddly cute/good looking.
"Fishy," I said. I don't know where it came from. It just popped out.
"Fishy," he breathed. It seemed to make sense to him.
"Mianhae," I said, pulling a face. "I don't know where that came from." But even so, something was telling me to reach out, to touch this guy. I lifted a hand, but dropped it again. I didn't know him. Why would I do something like that?
DongHae
I saw her raise her hand a little. Like she was going to touch me. But she let it fall. Was she feeling something?
Ah, whatever, I'll just take the chance.
"Who are you?" she asked, confusion clearly etched on her face.
"Don't you remember me?" I asked back. She met my gaze, then looked away.
"No, I don't, mianhae," she replied. "But I feel like I've seen you before. Somewhere. Like in a dream. Do you know me?"
I nearly smiled. Right now I know you more than you know yourself, you silly girl.
"Maybe you'll remember this," I said instead, picking up her hand. She stiffened a little, and her eyes travelled up to search my face. "Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything to you," I said, reminiscing about the time when we'd shared a bed and she went all worried. I felt like laughing and crying at the same time. With her eyes firmly on me, she relaxed. I brought her hand up to my chest, and placed it over my heart, my hand over hers.
It was a split second reaction. She gasped slightly, her breathing quickening. Almost in a daze, she brought her other hand up and touched my face.
It was over in a second. Her expression became shocked. "What are you doing?!" she exclaimed, pushing me away. I fell off the bed, landing on my butt. Kyu and JunSu jumped off the couch and helped me up. She stared at me with wide eyes. "I have no idea who you are... you had no right to do that!" she yelled at me, then looked down at her hand. Hyun sat down next to her.
"Just go, Hae," she said, looking sadly at me.
I turned away so nobody would see the single teardrop escape from my right eye.
EunHyuk
There was a connection. I saw it.
Her expression softened, and she almost looked like she remembered him.
She'd even said his nickname, Fishy.
Is it possible to pick a random word like that out of nowhere... which totally relates to him?
It's heartbreaking, it really is.
He thought no one saw him cry.
I did.
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