It's You Chapter 29

DongHae
It's been hours. Actually, I'm not even sure. None of us have watches, I can't be bothered forcing Min's phone from his pocket (because Hyuk and I conveniently left ours back at the dorm) and the floor is much more interesting than seeing all the other people staring at us.
Or, rather, me, seeing as Hyuk and Min have fallen asleep.
I feel squashed. Hyuk might look thin, but he's not as light as you think.
My shoulders are going to come right off soon.
I can't even think of sleeping right now. How can I? One of the people I love the most in the world might be dying in there, and the last time I saw her in person was, what, 6 months ago?
And she didn't even tell me she was coming back.
I can already imagine her planning her very own surprise. Smiling to herself, jumping around the room in excitement.
I smile.
This was so unfair on her.
I suppress a sob.
I lift my eyes from the floor. Most people are asleep in the chairs, JaeHwa's parent and HyunJae and JunSu included. Why didn't everyone just sleep on the floor? You could stretch your legs at least. And JunSu has the longest legs I've ever seen.
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The light above the operation theatre doors went out. At the same time the hospital doors burst open. Umm, the doctors HAD to come out from the theater doors right, not the hospital doors...?
"Hyung!" Why did it sound like KyuHyun? I looked around, scrambling to my feet.
Min and Hyuk fell into the space I'd just shot out of, knocking their heads together. Well, at least I can say that it wasn't me who woke them up.
"HAE! Ow...!"
"What was that for?!"
I ignored them, still looking around for Kyu. "Kyu?" I called.
"Hyung!" Kyu ran out of nowhere, careering right into me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not that short but Kyu was still taller than me... not to mention coming at me like a winded rhinoceros. I felt a bit winded. "I came as soon as I could," he said, clinging on to me.
"Who brought you?" I asked, patting him on the back. Okay, now I feel short. Go ahead, laugh at me.
Kyu let go of me and turned. I looked around him. Teukie hyung came striding up the corridor, hair covered by a cap and hood. If I didn't know him better, I reckon he would have brought all of Super Junior. But Teukie hyung wasn't like that. He didn't like the spotlight very much.
"How is she?" he asked when he came up to us. Kyu drifted to Min and Hyuk, who both looked half-asleep.
"I don't know..." I answered, my gaze drifting to the chairs. Wait... weren't JaeHwa's parents right there a minute ago? I looked around wildly, catching a glimpse of them disappearing behind a corner. I ran forward, but Hyuk and Kyu pulled me back. "I've got to know!" I hissed at them, when someone suddenly careered out of nowhere into Hyuk.
"Oh, I'm winded," groaned Hyuk, massaging his chest.
"Hyun," I said, grabbing her by the shoulders. JunSu followed behind her, looking wary. HyunJae looked away from me, eyes trained on the ground. A tear slipped down and splashed on my shoe. I shook her a little, willing her to answer me. Instead she tore herself out of my grasp and threw her arms around Hyuk, who held her tight.
"She's in a coma, Hyukkie, she -" She suddenly sobbed and buried her head in his chest. Out of the corner of my eye, someone fell to the ground. I did nothing. I was totally numb. I was dimly aware of someone guiding me to a chair, someone putting their arms around me, but I didn't know who. I felt like someone had knocked me out with a sledge hammer.
Someone - I think it was Teukie huyng - pulled me into a hug and pulled my head into his shoulder.
It was then that I let out a sob.
It was then that the shakes started.

KyuHyun
This couldn't be happening. This wasn't happening.
That wasn't DongHae hyung shaking and sobbing in Teukie hyung's arms.
That wasn't SungMin hyung comforting JunSu.
That wasn't HyunJae practically buried in Hyukkie hyung.
I'd pinch myself and get myslef out of this dream, this nightmare.
I've been pinching myself since they told me.
And I still haven't woken up.
I whimpered, my lip trembling. JaeHwa...
The very first image I had of her lit up in my head. I'd loved her then and I still did. She was more than a friend... she was my sister.
When her heart broke mine did too. I wanted to hold her and tell her everything was going to be alright.
I wish I could do that now.
I whimpered again, feeling my entire body breaking down. SungMin pulled me into a hug.
"You're allowed to cry, Kyu, just let it go," he whispered in my ear, his voice quivering slightly. I clung to him. I swallowed but the lump in my throat refused to go down.
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JunSu
I can see her. I can see her through the glass.
She looks like Jae.
She is Jae.
But Jae wouldn't be lying here. Jae wouldn't be motionless. Jae wouldn't be as pale as this.
She's not Jae.
Jae's gone.

DongHae
She looks so perfect. So porcelain-like. As if I could break her just by picking up her hand.
It's not her.
"I know what you're thinking," said a voice behind me. I turned. JunSu stood beside me, hand on JaeHwa's window. "That's not JaeHwa. Not the JaeHwa we know, anyway." He looked at me. "Correct?"
I nodded. Before I can say anything, he turned towards me so we were looking each other in the eyes.
"What were you to her, DongHae sshi?"
"I... I loved her."
"We all did. And still do. Be honest, DongHae sshi."
"Look - "
"When Jae got attacked I promised myself I wouldn't let anyone hurt her again. I made myself her bodyguard. I swore to protect her with my life. And what did you do?
"JunSu, what -"
"You broke her heart, DongHae sshi." He stared at me, willing me to say something.
"It was for the best, JunSu."
"So you thought. Do you know how much she cried? Do you know how much pain you cost her? Even when she smiled I could see she was dying inside. But you didn't care, did you?"
"You -"
"You nearly killed her, DongHae!" he yelled. HyunJae tore herself away from the glass.
"Stop it, Jun!" she cried, pulling him backwards. He ripped his arm out of her grasp, pushing me to the wall. Was I really going to get bullied around by a kid 4 years younger than me? I pushed JunSu back against the opposite wall.
"You have no idea," I said, breathing hard through my nose. He struggled, but I pinned him down. Hyuk tried to pull me back, but I stood my ground. "You have no idea how much it killed me to do that, JunSu. You have no idea. It nearly killed me too. But you saw, she got better. She forgot me. It hurt, but at least she was alright. And no one hurt her again. So don't judge me JunSu. I did it all for her." I released him, stepping backwards.
He staggered forward, catching his breath. Hyun helped him up. He looked at me. "So what is she to you, DongHae?" he asked.
"I love her with all my heart," I said, looking him square in the eye. "And I'll love her until the end of time, until the day I die." I waited for him to challenge me again.
Instead, he grinned at me.
"Just what I was looking for," he said, smiling.
He held out a hand.
What. The. Hell.